Note to self:

i sld update my blog...
its in a mess...

lyf of a minority

boohoo...
i miss my fwens...
miss al those gerl toks we had...
catfights...
hakz...
its bin a while since i had those fun...
lyf in poly,
esp wen u hav a bunch of bloody superbly borin matez,
is equals to no lyf...
sad to sae huh...
but wat to do...
its e choice tt i made aft O's...
envy those ppl which have fantastic cls...
altho of dif races,religion,sexes...
ey gt along wel...
might owis b togetha...
but e bond is der...
y m i owis gettin into a "broken" cls...
mayb its nt e cls...
mayb its juz me...
mayb im too choosy in makin frens?
mayb i dunno hw to mk frens?
mayb mayb mayb...
no offence here...
but i do find chinese students very inconsiderate..
ey dun care if der's a minority in e grp...
ey will cary on speakin tt wonderful language of eirs...
while us,e minority...
bein ignore...
wen bein ask to speak eng...
eir rep...
"oh sory...wait ar...i dunno hw to speak in eng ar"
yeah i do undertand simple mandarin...
but tt doesnt mean i noe all ryt?
y r tis ppl so inconsiderate?
if u r nt fluent in eng,
which i admit even i m nt gd in it,
den,e more u sld speak in tt language...
hw r u gg to improve it wen u dun even bother to try & practice it?
haiz...
lyf in spore...
e minority r owis bein undermine...
y cnt juz e chinese understand us?
but wen its em hu r e minority in a grp,
den ey will start usin eir blardy brains...
"eh speak eng leh"
yeah its true tt we tend to speak our language wen we r in our own grp...
but do b sensitive to e surrounding...
tis aint china...
wer u cn speak ur damn dialect...
im nt bein rude...
juz bein realistic...
izit a common sight fer u to see a grp of chinese majority wit a minority in it speakin eng?
No...
i dun even tink der is one...
e best ey cld do is translate to e minority aft sum tym...
wen ey realise tt e minority is gettin piss wit em...
or wen e minority beg em to speak eng e tenth tym...
but have u seen a grp of malay or indian spaekin eir own language wen ders a chinese in e grp?
No...
so wat does tis show?
chinese r a bunch of inconsiderate buncha of ppl...
no offence once again...
juz to highlight tis matta to those hu read tis tiz...

shoppin!!!!nyeheheh...

hurrah!
went outz wit fam juz nw...
wel s usual...
bght nonsense stuff...
heng ar mama pay fer me...
hehx...
yalar...
ey al gt PP i neva receive mah...
so in end,e one hu din receive PP spent e moz...
heehee...
wat to do...
gerls mah...
so very e ez to find stuf...
UNnecessary stuff tt is...
wait...
no no no...
todae i did buy necessary stuff...
yay!
at last...
ila bought nided stuf...
err...
except fer 1...
hehx...
wateva larz ek...
s long s i dun fall bankrupt sua...
but we din reli shop til we drop coz mama wsnt feelin well...
so we went home anrd 6...
manz...
very e mabok dey in e taxi...
e driver din drive tru SLE coz der wasnt slow movin traffic shit til amk...
yeah so we ended up driving tru thomson...
such a looooooooong way...
plus we stop at 2 stops otw coz mama nided to take in sth...
gosh hate it wen e taxi hadta go tru e long way...
it juz mk me feel sick...
mama was oredy nt feelin well...
in e end...
2 person wasnt feelin well...
e otha person was me lar!
lol...
almoz vomitted once got off e taxi...
but hadta cntrol...
my head & stomach was rollin lyk kerazie...
but coz of mama...
hadta endure...
muz b strong...
but once reach hm....
ahhhhhh....
such a comfort...
dive straight fer e bed...
cnt tahan larz...
ltr mama ok,i sick lyk hell...
but nw okie liaoz...
heehee...
til wen larz ek my motion sickness gona end...
hmmm....
*last check: gain a kg!!!*

enuf slp=cranky

i shant haf enuf slp...

yupz...

had overdose of enuf slp e past few daes...

& guess wat?

im feelin more tired i sld...

wonder y e heck docs & all e oldies wan us to hv enuf slp each nyt...

well it doesnt werk fer me at least...

nuf bout slp...

lets tok bout skool...

ye-ah...

skool starts!!!

at last...

was lookin forward to it...

sadly tho...

im reli fer nw,

e oni mly in me cls...

ayu nt gona b in all my modules...

syafiq,

well erm...

i dun consider him s a mly...

hee...

gems was fun!

"Beauty of Cosmetics"

cls fer bimbos...

hee...

nah...

der's 3 guys in der...

hakz...

guess ey hv no choice larz...

hee...

anws...

e lecturer

*yupz,ders oni lect fer my gems*

was sooooooooo kiut!

its a SHE btw...

she wld laugh at herself & use "DIY" language...

hakz...

imagine...

a spinster,anrd 40+...

tomboyish lookin...
goes clubbin....

hakz...

yupz...

she aint hot lookin...

nor young....

& she goes clubbin...

"i dowana miss my Mambo nyt"...

hakz...

its indescribable...

she juz so adorable...

so yeah...

i gues i gona enjoy tis gems too...

plus........

almoz half e cls is mly!!!

yayness!!!...

alas...

borin u noe...

whole cls chinese...

e oni mlys i cn c r those in TC...

yayness!

more mlys,more fun...

*yela pape lar ila oiiiiiiiii*

~e heat is on~

sem starts...
new faces...
fc6...
proj...
orientations...
politics...
mooooooore politics...
outta breathe...
hlp!
sumone...
hlp me...
suffocatin...
cnt breathe...
e heat...
its on...
cnnnnnnt...
bre...

cnnnt..

breathe....................................................................................................

ak!urk!

take on me...if u dare....

Yeah!

guess wat?

i found my thumndrive liaoz!!!

~yeehaa~

kkz...

nth to b soooo excited bout...

but hey!

ders personal docs in der kkz...

anws...

stil quite piss...

wit hu else but...

well u noe hu...

juz e tot of him makes my blood boil...

shytz...

kkz...

let me recite hw it was found...

ehem...

i was wit my folks at TTSH on Thu morn...

so it was aft all e checkups & stuff...

tot of smsin him to ask sum shyt...

tinkin tinkin tinkin of wat to ask,

suddenly received 1 sms...

tt was arnd 12+ i tink...

kkz...

so it was marina...

"ila!!ur thumbdrive is here!its hanging frm e table side.juz found it =)"

manz was i overjoyed...

juz told my dad to get a new thumbrive a few moments b4...

& der it was, e sms...

but sth nt ryt...

hw e hell did it get der?

i sab syed ham ransacked e whole club fer it...

not once,twice...

but thrillions i tink

*kkz...exxaggerating*

it juz din make sense at all...

kkz...

so i ask her back hw did ey found it...

she juz sae e cast,

her nuraini zaiman syed & him,

were shiftin e table fer reh...

den all of em...

yupz...

all of em...

found it hanging nicely by e side...

hw interestin...

hw cn it possibly b?

wen we actuali pulled out e table itself on e missin dae?

kkz...

so i told her i'll b kumin to skool ltr on arnd 5 to geddit...

cmon manz...

its my personal docs...

its important to me...

no rep...

kkz fine...

so i assume tt it was ok fer em...

so me & folks wen to eat...

im famished btw...

den we went AMK...

yada yada yada...

coz since der was no rep,

i took my tym to go skool...

dad was on e wheels...

so i dun feel e nid to rush...

den at arnd 2+ alomoz 3...

he decided tt we sld go to my skool first...

kkz fine...

so again...

i sms marina...

to my blardy horror...

ey were badmintonin & gona go off soon...

gosh manz!

can ya'll wait a while fer me?

im oredy otw frm amk...

oredy on e expressway...

kkz...

so i negotiate wit her again...

yet again...

"No. 'xx' sae we r gg off soon"

aw gawd!

tt bastard again...

y muz he control evryone...

& y does evryone hafta bow to him?

idiot...

dad was oredy otw...

kkz nvm...

its aint tt far since we r on wheels...

so we praticalie rush der...

i was hopin badly insyde tt ey wun go off tt soon...

its oni 3pm hello!

& he certainly hav no lyf...

juz pass me e damn thumbdrive & im off...

is tt sooo dif?

kkz...

so we reach skool in less than 20 mins...

guess wat?

zaiman nuraini marina syed + HIM...

were still badmintonin...

manz...

was i frustrated?

ignorin em...

i juz went up to club...

mesh was bout to go off...

she showed me wer my thumbdrive was...

i was too fuck up to tok much...

so i juz kip mum...

well i did blabber sayin tt it was weird to find it hangin by e table...

she asked me if ive suspected any1...

well of corz i sae yeah...

but din wana sae hu...

since der was no evidence...

but to my amazement...

she suspect e same person s i did...

accordin to her...

he arrived waaaaaaaaaaay earlier b4 reh start...

well he have e accessed to e rm anws...

& syed told em tt we had turn e club upside dwn searchin fer it...

so der she was...

feelin fishy bout e whole thang...

y did he kum tt early?

it struck me too...

he went back to skool e dae b4...

but aint sure if he went to club...

he cud haf put it back either one of e daes...

since der was no one else wit him...

watz worst...

he was complainin b4 i kum...

tt i was kumin sooooo late...

tt i was slow...

wat did he expect?

tt i'll appear e next sec i sae im kumin?

bull shyt!

manz was i boilin insyde...

mesh asked me to kip hush boutit...

coz e rest at e badminton court were piss wit him too...

great!

nw evry1 is piss wit him...

yayness!!!

so mesh went back aft tt & i went to e court to return e keys...

to HIM!

well i did tt on purpose...

juz to c his reaction...

"eh hi ila!"

blardy fake...

return him e keys...

altho i was wit skirts tt dae...

i was itchin fer a bad...

so yeah...

went fer a ball...

but dammit...

it was too fast...

hakz...

anws...

went off aft tt...

s soon s i step outta court...

he kol up back to me...

tellin me bout e cca week tymtable shyt...

eh hello!

i told u to sent it to me...

izit tt so dif?

& it was suppose to b my job...

fine...

since he wanted e job so badly...

take it...

at least a job lighter fer me...

yeah so i sae i dunno larz my tymtable & tt i asked him to email it to me...

guess wat?

"e tymtable is up in club.ur tym is xxx"

blardy!

blood boilin...

wadeva...

juz left e court witout further tokin...

so went back to my folks & off we go wit our routine...

urgh!

itz lucky tt im patient enuf...

thangz might have taken fer e worst if i were to folo my feelins...

a smack or fist might have land on his oil infested face...

damn!

y is he lyk tt?

so wat if its true tt he cs me s his competitor?

take on me!

fairly...

maturely...

professionally

nt tis way!!!

manz...

its nt even e start of a new term...

yet so much had hpn...

dunno wat will hpn wen it starts...

trust me...

i wun let him take ova e club...

nt wit tis blardy attitude of his...

NEVA...

PISS!

yupz...

no otha werds otha than...

PISS!

tts hw i feel ryt nw...

nt bcoz of my missin thumbdrive...

well of corz im piss wit tt too...

gt personal docs seh....

but im more piss wit sum1 attitudes...

juz got on my nerves man...

had bin patient truout...

din expect tis to hpn todae seh...

such nice tymin huh...

lost durin mitin...

tho im suspectin sum1...

i juz dowana pinpoint hu...

no use pinpointing witout evidence...

juz hope whu eva tt person is,

gv it back to me...

its my personal stuff...

but if,

tt it's him holdin on to it nw...

i wnt let him go easily...

i noe ders a motive behind it...

if nt y he din admit of doin so?

funny hw e way ppl tinks...

e thumbdrive cnt possibly poof itself in thin dusty air ryt?

urgh!

cnt tink further....

it juz get on my nerves...

nw,i cnt do anth witout my thumbdrive...

reli gona kill tt person...

unless he reli sincerely din noe tt he took it....

damn...

i wan my thumbdrive back!!!!

~remember remember, e 5th of november~

tired tired tired tired tired tired tired..........
pms ar i guess...
easily tired...
easily down...
easily irritated...
easily easily easily....
guess wat?
i plyed badminton twice on thu...
lolx....
feels gd aft tt....
betta than gym seh...
at least i sweat playin badmintonin...
than gym...
air con so cold...
hw to sweat seh...
but cnt sae oso larz...
otha ppl all sweatin lyk hel seh...
except me...
s dry s i cld b....
hakz...
uat malu seh...
go gym werk out but neva sweat...
mayb true ar...
i din do much enuf...
*shrugs*
yeah so badminton again juz nw...
weneva it was plan to play ar...
e court surely gt ppl...
if no plan ar....
sialla...
e court,empty lyk wat seh...
wadeva...
ala...
ey gg gym or badminton next tue...
nt free larz...
shucks!
long tym ar neva go gym...
ltr slack lyk hell...
lolx....
summore skool openin soon...
erm...
muz go e last tym next week b4 skool open...
erm...
freshies....
wonder if any cute wans....
*wonders off*
kkz...
ey might b younger...
bt cnt sae oso mah...
surely gt freshies s age s me...
hehe...
*gatal ko ek*
aww....
aiya...
but biz seh...
wer gt many ml guys wana tk tt...
tts e rezon y i owis end up cuci mate
*loosely translated: wash eye*
lookin at grls...
no eye candy seh SB...
so borin...
or i sld sae...
no eye candy seh SP...
e boringest poly in spore...
yeah yeah...
disagree wit me...
"SP wat...
gd skool wat"....
yala gd skool...
doesnt mean gt gud lookin guys ryt...
shucks!
luckily SP gt reputation seh...
if not i oso dowan to join...
might s well jpin TP...
gt more choices...
lolx...

watz wrong witchu?

m i useless?
or im juz bein super paranoid?
y does evryone tink shallow bout me?
isnt der anth tt im gud at?
oh gawd...
i hate bein a wallpaper...
hate bein ovashadowed,bein ovalook at...
hate it hate it hate it!
does anyone eva care bout me?
watz e use of voicin out wen its nt even bein bothered bout?
coz fer e sake of "bein nice"?
hakz...
fuck off...
i dun nid sympathy...
juz save ya'll breath & mind space fer otha stuff...
i'm juz wastin ur tym....
i'll juz delay ur process...
so buzz off...
at least i wun feel bad...
at least i wun feel useless...
at least i dun put hopes onto it...
y r ppl underestimatin me?
y r ppl takin advantage of me?
worthless...
tts wat i m to evry1...
"a gud fer nth"...
borin,dull,plain gerl...
tts wat i m...
dun bother to comfort me...
coz i wun bother to listen...
save ur breath...
walk ova me...
im nth interestin...
& dun bother kum to me wencha dun hv enuf ppl...
im a piece of shit...
wat fer waste ur tym wit a piece of shit?
it stinks!
tts wat i m wryt?
dislyk by evry1...
wat a lyf...