eh eh eh eh ah.....

i wonder if u noe
how ey live in tokyo
if u c me den u mean it
den u noe u hafta go
fast & furious! x2

e moz irritatin song of e moment...
bt e more i listen to tt irritatin part,
e more it kip playin in my head!
urgh!
fast & furious!
so v e act cute one....
so kawaiiiiiiii~
*double winks big eyed*
yucks!

i miss e ltc ppl...
sobz...
we did bump into each otha in skool...
bt no tym to reli chill togetha...
eh eh eh eh ah....
al bz wit own stuff...
plus tt irritatin kawai song tt ey used to irritate me...
manz...
miss those moments...
tho i owis kena bully...
double sobz....
hope we cn go outz raya togetha!
*tho i noe its impossible*
hee...
cambo dussa al e way!

kkz...
i sld tok less...
i realise tt my speakin speed is gettin faster & faster dae by dae...
it worries me...
at tyms i juz speak witout tinkin...
moz of e tym it turned outz stammer...
gheeeeez...

yikes!
cn tis "ary" stop buggin me!
manz...
wat kind of guy r u manz....
wana noe me bt dunno hw to gt to noe me...
wen i ask u to intro urself,
"wat u wan me to intro bout?"
*smacks forehead*
oi u first tym wana noe grls ar?
blur lyk anth...
nt tt im lookin dwn on u...
bt e way u present urself even in sms doesnt even attract me...
if any guy outz der hu sincerely wana noe me,show it...
nt lyk tis child's game...
manz....
wen cn i find e ryt guy?
haiz....
tts lyf i guess....
u muz cont search fer it...
bt e fear of me bein an old maid is wit me...
i fear i will b lyk tt...
*shivers*

wateva it is....
i sld b more careful of my werds....
tink b4 i sae anth...
& pls slow dwn ur speed grls....

& i miss e ltc guys!!!!!!

~eh eh eh eh ah~

~Lagenda-Hady Mirza~

kau budayawan bangsa
kau.......
Lagenda....

feelin e heat of e idols
ria kip playin jon's & hady's songs
bleh!
i dun even rmbr todae is e finals til i reach spore

yes!
i juz kum back frm redang
i tel u...
redang is
SUPERB!
clear blue water wit occasional spots wit green water
corals & fishes below
clear blue sky
white puffy clouds
& lotsa rocks
huge huge dark brown rocks
tinkin of it
i seldom c birds der
oh & lotsa cute adorable squirrels
weeeeeeee~
tis lil creatures welkum & bid us gdbye wen we check in & out
al e way frm e lobby to e rm & bck to lobby
its reli a nice greetin
wish i cld touch eir furry lil tails
or touch eir wriggly button noses
awwwwww~
ey r so adorable
plus frenly too
nt fierce lyk e monkeys near e guys bunk
lolz
poor em
e grls gt cutesy lil squirrels while ey gt agitated troupe of monkeys
hakz
its a pity we cnt explore e island much s our daes der were pack wit activites
& e nyt were preti too
dark skies wit occasional swishy of e waves hittin e shores
stars twinklin in e skies
cool breeze frm e sea
e feelin is juz great
except fer e ghost stories e guys told
damn u aj
freak wei ting outz til i dun dare to slp at nyt
thx huh

superstar virgo was cool too
it was our 1st tym on a cruise so ya
u cn sae hw jakun we were
hee
stayed up e whole nyt der wanderin arnd e cruise wit e guys
*exhalin relive sigh*
e nyt was betta den e dae
lurve hw e ship's lamps & moon's ray splash eir lights on us
dark soothin feelin
md us felt calm bt nt slepy
i shnt sae wat hpn tru out e stay at e cruise
oni e guys noe
lolz
i rather slp on e beach seat outz under e clear dark skies den on e bed in e cabin
its more fun & e atmosphere was more relax
i wish i cn brin my parents on a cruise in e future

redang is a wonderful place fer relaxation
e whole trip frm e cruise til e end is unforgetable
plus e crazy ppl tt i met,apart frm bein bullied
*sobz*
LTC Redang rocks
no regrets signed up

s al memories flash tru e mind
e heart miss em
e lips curve a smile

~e sallys-Lady Marmalade~

so so so addicted to tt song...
thx gabe fer e song

~lalalala...~

off to redang in 12 hrs tym...
woohooooooooooooooo~
redang redang redang
lets eat rendang!
lame....
hakz
took 3 freakin hrs packin stuff juz nw
& 3 freakin bags fer e journey

1. Backpack
2. Drum bag
3. Camera bag

plus 3 footwear

1. Sandals
2. Pump shoe
3. Sneakers

& lotsa lotsa clothes & shorts...
gona b lyk karung guni manz...
e 1st tym im bringg so many stuff to a camp...
including make up...
duh!
all bcoz we haf a dinner wit e principcal...
BIG DEAL AR!
*roll eyes*
anws....
i cnt wait fer it!
i cnt find werds to blog it all outz nw...
al i cn sae is....
i cnt wait!
lolx...
kkz....
ppl kip tellin me to hit e pillows nw...
my prob ar i wan to stay up...
harbour front at 230pm oni mah...
heehee...
kkz....
fine!
i end here...
nytz2 ppl...
will update once i touch dwn in spore next wk...

sweet dreams of redang...

Dear Mr Fawzey,

CAN I KILL YOU NOW?!!!

ila stop eatin
u r oredy so fat stil wana eat so much
ltr balloon lyk moses lim or suhaimi yusof hw?
saper susah?
ko jugak...
so kindly pls tahan ur nafsu & stop eatin so much...

ur loyal bt impulsive self,
ila

~yippe ka yeah!~

i pass! i pass!
shake ur booty bebeh...
ah ah...
lolx
i was so relieve once i saw my results ystrd...
my heart was pumpin so heart e whole dae...
din even gt a gd nyt's slp..
kip tinkin bout e darn results since e last ppr...
yupz tt bad i was...
even whine to ppl tt i wil repeat module...
sry ppl...
i was reli worried bout my results...
thx fer bearin wit tt attitude of mine..
*grins*
bt i sld sae e results turn out surprising too...
those modules which i expected an A or dist din even reach anywer close to it...
instead i gt a B...
& those which i expected to gt D or fail,turned out to b C or D+...
bt overal,i am relieved wit it...
bt nt satisfied tho...
oni a gpa of 2...
nth less nth more...
so yupz,der goes my uni dreams...
crushed & smashed to pieces...
haiz...
i sld start planning my path aft grad...
stil gt 3 sems to go...
insyaallah if i managed to pass al my modules smoothly..

so tt means...
fer nw....
I CAN ENJOY MY WHOLE LUNGS HEART LIVER OUT AT REDANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no more worryin bout results & shits...
juz enjoy!
gettin myself a tan at e beach...
swim wit e corals & fishes...
*kkz i cnt swim :p*
get up to e cool mornin breeze...
awwww....
hw nice...
plus e torturous activites...
wel tts e oni thang im nt lookin forward too...
hehx...
& heyz,i wil b e photographer too...
hehx...
neat huh...
too bad e cammy nt mine...
oh e battery is fully charge nw...
hold on while i unplug it...
*8 mins ltr*
sry gt carried away meddling wit it...
hmm...
i hv no damn idea hw to use tis cammy...
hakz...
juz connect it to e com bt so far nth hapn...
i wonder watz hpnin...
hmmm.....
*11 mins ltr*
oh well i guz i juz kip meddlin wit it...
sayonara........................................................

freakin idiot!
y is evrthang so fuckin wrong at tis tym?!!
stupid internet connection tt kips disconnectin
plus al e stupid nicknames tt ppl put in eir msn
irritatin sappy lurve songs on radio
wazzup wit u all?
cnt it juz b a lil more uptempo & relax?
im oredy dizzy frm lack of slp tinkin bout damn effin results
stupid msn
kip disconnectin
awww u nerds cn stop signing in wit flowers in ur nick & sayin "oh i fail"
f off u idiots
u noe u cn ace & dare to sae sth lyk tt
irritatin act cute biyatch
& nw aini tel me ystrd e whole werld msn live went berserk
mine's nt msn live!
so y e heck mine's affected?
dun tel me e whole werld b gettin eir results in 13hrs tym
friggin bastard
nt u aini
juz...
urgh hueva responsible makin me feel terrible
tt is...
al those idiots hu kip sayin ey wil fail wen in fact ey wil EXCEL
my own paranoid tinkin
& e ppl of msn
& gabe kip sign in & outz...
c watz i mean?
msn sux
wateva it is
im sure i wil repeat module
period

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wooopie~
its freakin past midnite & i stil hvnt shut my eyes....
wappadua irappambua...
wateva it means...

weeeee~
dun ask me y im super wooper hi at tis freakin hr...
coz i dunno...........
bin slam by mom in e aftn fer nt gg to e shop to buy garlics...
lolx...
lazy ar beb...
& i hate to do groceries...
effin leceh...
so ya truout e whole dae she kinda boycott me...
sobz...
pls tok to me wen u wake up...
gt me worry weneva she boycott me or anyone in da hs...

anws...
ila is gettin effin emo dae by dae...
wazzup witchu gerl?
k here's e story...
a few hrs ago,read an email by my uncle...
normal motivational kinda thang...
bt wat i din realise...
i started cyrin!
lolx...
yes!
practicalie tears flowin non stop dwn e cheeks...
luckily every1 was oredy drown in wonderland...
hw embarrasin wld it b if ey saw?
lolx...
i dowan imagine tt...
*blush*
Some time ago, at the Seattle Olympics, 9 athletes, all physically or mentally challenged, were standing on the start line for the 100m race. The gun fired and the race begin. Not everyone was running, but everyone wanted to participate and win.
They ran in threes, a boy tripped and fell, did a few somersaults and started crying. The other 8 heard him crying. They slowed down and looked behind them. They stopped and came back...All of them.
A girl with Down's Syndrowne sat down next to him, hugged him and asked, "Feeling better now?" Then all nine walked shoulder to shoulder to the finish line.
The whole crowd stood up and applauded. It lasted a very long time.
a simple story...
bt it touch me so much tt s im hittin e keyboard ryt nw,im stil cryin...
*i told u,im super emo todae*
reminds me of al e hlp,encouragement tt i constantly received...
luv ones may nt b able to b by my side 24/7...
bt deep dwn inside,i noe ders angels hu care fer me...
no matter hw effin sux i m towards em,ey r stil wit me...
ppl hu r owis der to lift me up wen i fall...
ppl hu r nt famous or rich wit money...
bt simple ppl wit a rich heart...
it reli break my heart seein em hurt...
e mind punishes me by recalling eir hurtful expression & e soul punishes me wit regrets...
a painful process fer myself...
bt a more painful process fer em...

i lurve u ppl...
mama ayah abg aina...
everyone hu have owis bin der fer me...
joyce...
wer r u?
i miss u terribly gerl...
do u even rmbr me?
wer hv u bin?
miss u even more durin e gatherin...
miss e tyms u were der fer me...
those lil chats & stuff...
i may nt hv e courage to sae tis directly...
I Love You....
all of u...
& im afraid to lose anyone of u...
tts my greatest fear....

manz...
i juz cnt stop cryin...
wats witchu ila?

i might b tinkin too much bout e results...
esp costing...
til i even dreamt of failin & forwardin tt module...
exactly hw i expect it to b...
it felt so real...
s tho it reli hpn...
i was searchin tru my results wen i saw e F i gt fer costing...
shockin bt expected...
i was running up & dwn e stairs tryin to convince myself its nt true...
bt unfortunately it was...
nth more cld b done except starin at e blank wall...
e dream was colored if im nt wrong...
& ders a believe tt colored dreams will kum true...
im so scared...
fer sum rzon i noe i wil forward tt module...
bt at e same tym i dun wan to...
i reli dowana forward any module...
bt 90% of me sae i will...
success cnt hpn ovanyt...
i noe i will buck up next sem...
bt e meanin of buck up wun b e same if i m to forward...
wit forward module,it wil mean double buck up...
plus e feelin of demoralise...
wateva it is,
i muz b prepared to forward....
im sure i will...
ppl hu noe me will noe hw strong my instinct r...
juz hv to pray hard tt i will b able to accept e fact...

PS:i dunno y i kip tinkin bout tt emo kid...idiot!

janji melayu tetap janji melayu...
kater jer juper 930 tap masing2 dtg terhegeh2...
termasoklar ku sindri...
hee...
smp ku 10...
hehx...
e latest was yasser...
1030...
tuh ponz nyaris2 kene tinggal...
& ya...
finally i manage to c hu is "yasser"....
bt too bad...
i stil dun recognise him...
& he stil dun recognise me...
hakz...
bagos...
melayu beb...
melayu...
bangsa yg amat peluper...
hidop melayu!
lolz...
was reli reluctant to go fer e gatherin juz nw...
reasons:

1. mah darlz din go
2. i din noe dose ppl well
3. i cnt swim!*red light district ar beb*

urgh!
so v e frustratin...
bt at e same tym i wana mit em...
yelar da lamer tk juper....
org da jemput...
dtg jelar....
pag siot juper...
drg igt nk g kelas kepe...
juper pag2 buter...
kkz...
nt TT early...
tap holis beb...
holis...
tym rilek...
bt wateva....
once a blue moon gatherin nyer pasal ku sanggup...
ceh kl part blaja tau kuar wit fam,bkn maen liat lag...
lolz...
so patotnyer mit si fizah tuh dulu...
skali tap tup tap tup kol dier da smp interchange...
kentot ar...
ku dalar tk kenal ituh budak sumer seh...
klaz wateva2 larz....
heret ar diri g interchange...
da lambat kanz lagpon...
pasal ar....
klaz smp aitez gak ar...
wani fizah azhar taufiq fajar kt situh...
bit akward gak ar at first...
tap k ar at least taufiq ader ar...
so nt tt akward...
bt too bad...
berzaman aru ku igt si azhar tuh...
lolz....
tk recog langsung siak ku...
tgu nyer tgu si yasser tk timbul2...
janji melayu abis seh...
patot pandai bilang jgn dtg 930...
ni cnfrm kes da plan nyer ar nih lambat...
kentot ar...
ppr ar....
gedebak gedebuk smp ECP 12 gituh...
taufiq fuckin al e way...
lambat ar nih ar tuh ar...
juz coz he needed to leave at 2...
pantat ar...
janji melayu per...
step dier tk pena buih kepe...
i reli dunno wat to tok wit em at first ar...
stakat ho he ho he...
summore i was physically & mentally tired...
dun ask me y ar...
tatao...
nk kater pms tgh red light...
ar gasak ar...
so tru out e whole "gatherin" i din reli tok tt much ar...
bbl bbl ar...
tap nt tt much...
tkder topic ar siak...
laki laen ar...
drg open any topic jadik...
tap ok larz....
at least tis gatherin ku tau saper kenal ku saper tk...
sadly 90% of em cnt rmbr my name...
Waaaaaaa......
its SAHILA!
or ILA!
susah nah ker...
fisa lag sedap...
"tuh saper?"(referrin to fajar)
whispered to wani wen fajar was oni behind her...
& her whisper was loud...
lol...
kekek siak...
& she cont whisperin to wani askin al of us...
lolz...
well ppl chg...
bt i haf to state one thang...
farhan was yummy....
lolz....
i neva tok to him b4 siak...
he was e quiet2 type...
nt even in e same cls...
oni fer ml i tink...
goody look...
bt wen i saw him juz nw...
phew!
emo kid seh...
hakz...
i hv to admit!
he look good....
lolz...
kkz...
tappered jeanz...
bt nt reli those tappered giler kaki skuding nk mampos kinda tappered...
tappered bt sti gt sum tiny weeny allowance...
lolz...
i din recog him at first....
aft a while den realise...
so ya...
*1 by 1 e ppl kum*
me wani farhan nizam ashaari sat at e shelter while e rest swam...
chit chat a bit here & der....
ok larz...
kwn da lamer tk juper...
i was surprised ey noe me...
yalar ku kan wallpaper....
bt i hv to sae farhan is cute!
lolz....
went back wit him & nizam juz nw...
mls ar nk ikot yg laen2 g mkn...
biler sak ku nk balek gituh...
so ya...
in all ey sae im stil e same...
*i shall tk it positively...hee*
"sahila masi silent jer ek dr dulu"
ku minah rilek per...
mesti kene maintain...
heeheee...
yelar krg sumer bbl bahase yg ku da jarang kai seh...
phm2 jelar skola ku cinone bacin melambak giler...
melayu ponz da speakin...
chance nk rilek bbl melayu da tipis woi...
hakz...
krg naseb baek enjin ku tk panas tad...
kl tk cnfrm ku da bbl merep...
dun judge a book by its cover...
hoho...
bt serius ar...
tad otak ngn bdn tkder energy seh...
hope cn mit up agn ar...
& hope ey approach me weneva bump upon outside!
la paz sea contigo