haiz...
wat gona hpn to my fam...
one aft anotha prob surface...
& each tym it aint smal matta...
no matta hw smal tho, it will end up big...

wen we gettin to get along betta...
puttin our pasts behind & go forward...
new prob interfere...
& once agin...
evrythang tt we've build wil b crash...

til wen muz we cary on lyk tis?
u kip sayin...
"yes, im tryin, im tryin"...
BULLSHIT!
its nt him i dun trust...
its u!
u r e coz of al e mishap e fam's gg tru...
u r e coz of al e shit we gg tru...
dun u dare sae its his fault...
he's tryin his bez to pls u & mk a betta future fer us...
bt its u hu kip ruinin it!
cnt u juz understand?
fer fuck sake!
create a space in ur blardy schizoprenic heart & mind fer us...
coz of u we suffer...
u blardy dare to sae its our fault & our ancestor's fault we end up tis way...
Fuck it!
Ur mind & ur mouth no longer coincide...
U've lost ur senses...
Fuck off women!

Im sory...
I din mean to b rude...
Bt wat cn i sae...
It's e generation thang...
Which i geddit frm hu else...
But...
You...

*Wakeh boruuuuuuuuu*

i'm back to hueva readin tis senseless blog which im sure is NO ONE!
m wastin my wakeh boru tym here hittin e keyboard aimlessly while smackin to akon & eminem...
folks in e dinin wakeh boruin wit granny, my own real granny, bout sum wakeh boruin dotsy...
heeheehaahaain blah bleh bloe...
dotsy bro in his wakeh boru crib killin sum wakeh boru monsta...

m supposed to do research on my dotsy wakeh boru Finance proj bt m too dotsy moodless...
wana kol my wakeh boru bestiz bt my dotsy voice is stil on & off...
almoz lose it durin e wakeh boru kenduri juz nw...
manz manz manz...

ive bin tinkin tis tru...
& i nid hueva dotsy readin tis wakeh boru entry opinion...

i wana werk again...
werk while study again...
hvnt discuss it wit my parents yet...
tho i noe ey wil nt approve it...
bt i nid extra cash...
plus i feel tt ive bin wastin my wakeh boru tym dotlessly...
& i feel dotsy al e tym...
tinkin bout my personal finance...
e fam's...
it juz mk me feel so dotsy...
i feel too free & empty....
& i cnt go outz often coz im broke...
wakeh boruly broke...
its no dotsy fun to outz witout cash in S'pore...
witout money, u r restrain to certain wakeh boru plc...
haiz...
i even hafta dotsily restrict my daily sch expenditure...

at e same tym,
i wakeh boruly dowana kip askin my parents fer money...
i wana learn to b independant...
til wen i wana depend on em?
tts y, i wana werk PT again...
i noe it'll be wakeh boru tirin & stuff...
bt i muz dotsily learn to adapt...
live in S'pore, u nid to werk hard...
u cnt dotsily survive on a single income...
u will nt survive...
Wakeh boru S'pore is an expensive plc to live...
Derfore, u nid to b ahead & strive ur bez...
I've learn my dotsy mistake e last tym i werk PT while sch...
& i wakeh boruly dowana repeat tt again...
I'm determine to excel in both, no trice, includin my fam...
Altho i noe it'll tk lotsa wakeh boru dotsy tym & effort...
I'm up fer it!

Anw...
Those dotsy hu noe me well will wakeh boruly noe tt im one dotsy hu cnt sit stil...
Heeeheee.... :p

*uhuk*

thx to e chendol tt i ate at geylang last sun,
nw i cn barely speak...
each tym i speak,
i will sound s tho ive bin choke...
yupz, e sorethroat has subside bt my voice is losin...
once a while, al tt kum out frm my voice will be...
"ergh"...
& i will strain my voice to speak out...
its bin a long tym since i ve sorethroat...
usually its my sneezin fit...
oh my...
i may sound cerazie saein tis...
bt i prefer havin sorethroat than my sneezin fit...
at least i wun look terrible wit a bozo red nose & piles of ewwwy tisues...
tt means i cn wear my eyeliner to skool!
*brims*
& its bin ages too since e last tym i had MC...
manz i so proud of it....
im so proud tt i seldom tk MC....
kehehehe....
i was oredy feelin unwell on Tue.....
& was sick on wed....
bt i oni took MC on thu...
wen my fever had run dwn...
e worst part was, i oni went into e doc rm less than 5 mins!
manz....
ppl muz've tot i purposely went to c e doc to gt MC....
bt in fact i was sick at tt tym!
& my appetite i tel u....
is worst than wen im nt sick....
i wan to eat chocz....crackers....ice cream...etc....
s tho im pregnant lyk tt....
*choy*...
& thx to my MC....
i cnt go fer CSSC....
shucks....
bin wantin to go der bt din hv e opportunity...
wen hv e opportunity, sick...
haiz....
manz i hv lotsa to update....
wil update ltr ltr larz hor....
nenek is at hm ar....
& no 1 is entertainin her....
blardy bro in his blardy rm....
folks jemputan kawinin....
waitin fer folks nw so tt we cn go to e kenduri tunang....
at e 2nd floor!
wth...
wat to do....
sedare larz....
grrr.....
kkz.....
wil update a more reasonable entry ltr ltr....

cheriooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooz

Oi bored larz!
walao weh...
slpy bt cnt slp...
wana do report bt no mood...
tried doin bt shyt turn outz...
wat e hell!

Y no body online?!
Y al online bz?!
Y no body kol me?!
Oi kol larz!
free dowana kol,bz den kol...
wat e hell!

go slp sumore larz in e aftn...
slp 2-3hrs...
pull comforter,cuddle al e stuff toys...
go larz slp tru e rain...
nw,cnt slp...
wat e hell!

u deserve tis gerl...
such improper timin u set fer urself...
screwed up timin...
cary on larz tis lyfstyle...
slp late at nyt wake up late in e morn/aftn...
wat e hell!

go find sth to do larz...
laz arnd e hs lyk no body biznes...
act s tho its ur property...
wen in fact none r urs...
u deserve tis...
wat e hell!

ah ah ah
swirl swirl swirl

yippeeee kayeeeee....
fuCkyroOo....
uh uh uh...
swirl swirl swirl...

watz more satisfyin..
1) survivin a week's sem test
or
2) a stupid crazie gerl's dae outz?

i sae BOTH!
i survive a week of blardy MST & immediately had a stupid gerl's dae outz!
if i cld, i soooo badly wanted to scream my lungs intestine al outz e second e invigilator sae
"times up. pls put dwn al ur pens. no more writing"
i dun even care hw i'll fare fer al e modules...
coz i noe i will fail it...
so watz e use of comparin al e ans lyk al my cute studious lil clsmates...
*wink2*

hang arnd fer a while & off to meet e gerls...
well s usual,i reach earlier den any of em...
haiz...
guess its retribution coz i owis md ppl wait fer me b4 tis...
hehx...
granny wit her oh-so-12-yrs-old get up,reached nt long ltr...
diva meshy caught up wit us way ltr...
e plan was to meet at ct hall to c c marina square den off to bugis...
wer else cn u go wit granny & meshy?
meshy=marina square
granny=bugis
guys=hazwani/esplanade/bugis
my god....
ders lotsa otha plc in spore to chill ppl!

well wadeva...
bt diva & me were famish...
so off we strut ourseves to cavana...
nt worth it...
spend 8 bucks on a meal...
seriusly,my mum can cook waaaay betta den tt...
gosh...
initially fet lyk eatin western...
siam kitchen or wateva...
bt der was none halal der...
oh dear...
so left wit no choice...
s owis...
i was e last to fin my meal...
hee...
seein e rate at i was eatin...
e gerls decide to set a tym limit at each shop...
15 mins!
hw e hell cn u stay at a shop fer less than 15 mins!
oh boy...
wateva larz hor...

strut ourselves to Esprit...
here's wer e advdenture began...
gerls bein gerls...
we tried on an identical blouse & took pix of it...
i was e 1st one to try...
a skirt a blouse & a jacket...
so e salesgerl gv me a tag...
i tink e gerls din rcv any tag...
u noe e type of tag u will rcv wencha wana try on clothes?
ya those big plastic tag...
so wen we were camwhorin in front of e mirror...
e IC kinda scolded us...
"helo helo...u cnt tk pic here are"
paiseh ryt?
coz we were der quite long...
so quickly chg & off out e store...
embarras embarras...

nvm...
we stil cont wit our therapy coz we al hv sth to buy in mind...
yada yada yada yada...
in e end oni granny brght her jacket...
frig...
7hrs in marina square & one pathetic earrings fer me & diva...
our aim wasnt meet...
except granny...
bummer...
i swear i'll buy tt CK bag...
any sponsers?

e dae ended wit us at Billy Bommers!
yippe....
e milkshakes were superb!
tooopid diva....
"isit halal?"
"No."
& stil....
granny & me went in...
hakz....
tatao malu teros...
bt we oni drank e milkshakes hor....
nth more...
plus plain water...
hehx...
u ppl sld go der!
it superb!
ey serve u togetha wit e shakers & pour into e glass ryt infront of u...
superlicious...
uhm uhm....

tired oredy...
we buzz off hm...
ila bein ila...
i stooooopidly din rmbr tt i stil hv e tag wit me!
e Esprit tag!
yes e one tt i gt wen wana tried on e clothes earlier durin e dae...
lolz...
oni at e MRT station den i realise...
nt enuf wit camwhorin & bein scolded der,
1 idiot even brght hm e tag...
a lil "accidental" token frm a satisfyin dae....

~fuCkyroOo~

~WHOA~
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first thang first:
my CCA pts are 43!!!
hakz...
e last tym i view it was oni 31...
nw its 43!!!
lolz...
thx to redang...
gain 12 pts frm der...
nt a waste i went...
met new frens...
board e cruise...
had fun...
nw a huge jump of cca pts...
nt a big deal to many...
bt im shock by it!
hopefuly e pts r useful fer my Uni entry...
heheh...
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back to sirius matta...
damn...
MST lyk 17 hrs frm now & im stil relakin typin away my blog...
folks summore gt e cheek to ask jalan rayer...
puih!
i wan to study larz...
i NID to study...
hvnt touch much fer tmr's ppr...
& e ppr e dae aft...
& aft & aft & aft & aft...
aiyoyo...
gona die ar dey...
hw to pass my semester lyk tis?
last sem almoz die liaoz...
tink back...
i did lyk almoz nth e past few daes slackin at hm!
bt i dun understand y i din study...
grrr....
i sure gona gt wat i deserve...
bleh...
fer sum reason i dun gv a damn bout e MST...
which worries me..
u noe e feelins wen u juz dun hv any feelins fer e events tt gona hpn?
hope u do...
manz im feelin lyk a psycho tokin to myself...
hakz...
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i miss my frens!
i wana go outz!
i wana shop!
i wana chill!
i wana i wana i wana!
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oh MST...
hurry kum & go...
dun let me hanging sufferin here...

~TC rayer outinz~

events by events...
im gettin hm ltr & ltr...
oh gosh...

reach hm at 1+am juz nw...
lolz...
e latest ive reach hm b4 tis was 1230am...
todae is lyk almoz 130am!
hakz...
bt it was fun...
tho rai & zie wasnt der...
plus CONAN...
manz...
my mum cook rendang fer u bt u din kum...
wasted...
nvm...
e rest were der to taste e tastiest rendang...
heheh...
plus it was e tiriest rayer outin...
woke up damn early in e morn to preapre den reach hm late...
aiyoyo...
luckily ltr i gt no plan...
except hlp mum cook nasi lemak fer bro's bdae...
oh well...
nt so though tho...

i kinda feel drug ryt nw...
dizzy & funny stomach feelin...
was in a daze at sab's hs...
nuraini was drunk...
aj was well,feelin sexual...
amir was blind in 1 eye...
justin was chgg is sex...
guess its e aft midnite illness...
yes,im sleepy...
slept truoutz e whole journey frm man's to sye-D...
beside man...
lolz...
it wasnt intentional kkz...
i sat der at 1st to c e pixie...
bt was too lazy to go back to my seat aft tt...
so yalar juz stay put der & slp lorz...
we were sharin mp3 anws...
dun gt me wrong uh...
oh ya & his mum was nice...
she tapao cookies fer us!
yipppee....
i felt embarrased at 1st ar...
sld hv kip my mouth shut...
lolx...
bt she was nice...
i loike her actually...
hakz....
she & mir's mum...
actually im quite shock mir's mum cn speak ml...
no offence ar...
bt ya...
:p
sportin ar both mumz...
hakz...
my mum ask nuraini bout her manicure...
funny seh...
sld gt e updates frm both parties ltr...
hehx...
in al i enjoy todae...
walkin tru e blisters & rushin fer tym...
al tt gone wencha wit e TCeans...
& i wan more of zaiman's cookies...
lolz...

DEADlines

aiyoyo...
stil hvnt do my malayu thingy yet...
closin date 10 nov lehz...
aiyoyo...
ammak...
stil gt elearnins...
kkz...
tt one ive done almoz al...
oni gt FF & CACC...
FF can do aft mst...
so tt means i oni gt CACC to do!
*tribal dance*
yeah...
go ila! go ila!
uh!uh!uh!
can go rayer..................................................
bt stil nid to study fer mst...
freakin idiot...
kkz....
nid gtg....
taz

Fuckin Shit Entry

blardy damn tiredz todae...
y notz...
woke up early in e morn to hlp outz in e kitchen...
shower hrs aft tt...
mins ltr 2 grps of ppl kum...
at e same tym...
haiz...
no tym to rest...
muz layan em...
luckily one grp is bro's fren...
minahs & mat...
dunno hw e hell he gt em...
anak abu...
quickly eat den slp...
thk god it rain wen i slp...
so i actually had a gd slp...
woke up...
hr or so ltr dad's fren kum...
oklarz...
nt bad coz prepared way earlier b4 ey kum...
den cabot to e rm to do my own biz...
dwnload music...
hakz...
kum oni wen ey wana go back...
den eat again...
hw cn i resist mee soto?
bt was too tired to move aft tt...
too bad fer me...
e table wasnt cleared yet...
shrek...
hafta clear it...
stupid bro...
tinks fer himself oni...
blardy dunno hw to hlp outz...
mum dad oso din sae anth...
reli gt on my nerve...
bt juz ignore it & cont my werk...
fuck...
blablablabla...
end up here bloggin...
so yeah...
its a shitty dae todae...
fuck...
dare to knock my door summore...
stupid bro...
wen e hell r u gona grow up...
wadeva...
im shag...
tink my menses kumin in a dae or two...
great tymin wen i wana go jalan rayer...
fuck it...
urgh...
stil gt e submission of e malay competition thingy...
yes...
im joinin a malauy competition to hlp outz a fren...
argh anotha job undone...
pluz blardy elearnin & mst...
fuck it all...