Am I happy to finally officially graduate from SP?
Maybe.
Am I looking forward to the ceremony?
Was.
Am I going out to celebrate after the ceremony?
No.
Am I excited for the ceremony?
Was & NO!

I am one sad pathetic lonely soul to receive the scroll tomorrow...
No classmates to hurrah with,
no buddies to grab hold of & jump around in our robe with our certs and scroll in our hands,
no celebration to look forward to after the ceremony,
no lecturers that I can't wait to meet and catch up with after the ceremony,
basically nothing to look forward to.
All I have are the robe and a set of graduation get-up that cost me over 100 bux,
plus a super annoying mum who is being fucking petty over what to wear and a pissed off dad.

If this is the case,
I DON'T WANT to go for the ceremony!

It will be a fucking waste of my time,
my energy,
& also my mood.
I rather go to work and slog myself with the accounts all by myself...

It's no big deal right if I don't attend?
Mum is probably going to continue feeling giddy tomorrow and we all may just end up not attending the ceremony at all!
Nobody going to miss me,
nobody going to ask around for me...
They wouldn't even bother about me!
They would just think that
"Ouh iLa didn't make it is it?She's repeating?Aiya expected larz..."

I don't want to attend!
I don't want to make a fool of myself!
I don't want to break down during the ceremony!
I don't want...
I don't want...........

I've been looking forward to the ceremony since the last day of exams...
Now,
it's all gone....

Why am I being punish this way?

Ah finally!
Managed to gather all the receipts that's been lying around in the mirror!
The results?
One whole plastic bag..
:P

But still,
the room is not yet completely tidy up...
I need a day just for myself in order for me to do that..
& I really mean 24 full hours to myself...
No disturbance!

Gosh the weather is freaking humid at the moment..
Am feeling super sticky but is very late to take a shower..
Oh wells I'm gonna do that anyways in 4 hours time...
Hehe...

Uhm I need to reorganise my cell's contact list too...
The inbox is full of messages from new contacts & I just can't save the number 'cause the phonebook is full...
Urgh!
Sorry people if I suddenly send ya'll weird messages...
Most probably those aren't for you....
I practically have to remember who send me which messages in order for me to contact that person...
& my inbox is forever full due to all the messages that I keep...

Now you know why I badly need a full day for myself right?
:D

Ahhhhhhhhh Beat It on air!

Kkz I'm just feeling so unorganised at the moment...
Plus sticky.

Wooooooah!
Didn't realise this blog is gettin rusty!
The picture is old,
the last entry dated almost a month ago,
the blog songs no longer playing,
& the blogskin is so dull!
Haha...

So let me see..
What have I been up to?

Ermmm.....

Working,
tuition,
gyming =D,
rehearsals,
& slacking with the family...

Yupz that's all what I've been actively doing...
Slightly more kerchiiings but not much spare time to spend with the peeps...
Sad case uh?
Sobz sobz...
Didn't even wish Meshy on her 20s....
I called you lots of time babe!
But your line is either engaged or you didn't pick up my call...
Boohoo~
Bad iLa!
Bad bad iLa!
=<

Aiya my life is very mundane larz now...
It is so monotonous that I can really predict what will happen the next day...
What type of tasks I will be doing in the office,
what time the boss & his wife will come,
what will I be doing after work,
how my weekends will be like...
Grrrr.....
But its ok...
I shall endure & adjust to it...
All for the sake of reaching my goals!
Yes!
My GOALSSSSSSS!
Muahahahahhahah....

But manz...
I really miss school life...
I miss my makan kaki...
Why larz each time you SMS me when I'm eating?
Memang dasar muke makan ah ko!
Hahah...

& oh!
Speaking of makan,
reminds me of Khadijah & her huge appetite..
Which reminds me of the spy adventure we went through last Friday...
Haha....
But I am still very positively sure that they are not blind!
Dayum I should have stop you from "donating" to them...
Assholes!

Enough is enough larz hor iLa...
I hope our plan on hor this Friday, girl....
Fig & Olive ah set!
'Cause Sakura as of now,
4 other different group of people have book me to eat at that place...
Bleh!
=P

Omg the parents is out merayaping again...
See,
my parents are more happening than their daughter....
Ayah,
sponspor me driving lessons ah..................................
*winkx*

Orytz I'm bored & boring...
kkz shall go back to my shows...

Taz....