I can't...

I want to have this job.
But I know I can't pass through the training & I need to find an alternative fast.

It's only a week on the job training doing solo
& I've made/received:

1 fatal error
1 complain

Make it 2 fatal error since I gave a wrong information also...

& guess what?
All were made on the 1st day...
How demoralise do you think I am?
The 1st day & there's 3 mistakes I've done...
No doubt my performance is improving,
but it's improving in a snail manner & I've yet to reach the minimum target!

How?
I've no darn idea how to make up for those stupid mistakes...
I'm still doing my best & fighting for my place..
But,
those mistakes are huge & it will definitely pull down my performance diary...
I don't mind going for the 2nd phase but even after going through that,
what if I still don't make it through?
Won't I be wasting my time?
& it will take months to find a new job...
I don't want to dissapoint the people who have faith in me nor do I want to dissapoint myself...
I am pushing myself to my very best,
& I swear I will be terribly upset if I don't get the job...

This mind can't stop thinking of my fate of the job...
Will I get it?
Will I be able to pull through the training?

Only time will tell...
Only then will I get the answer....

Que sera sera.....

farkin stupid shyt internet
blardy kip hanging
&*(^%$%^$&^R%76

oh gosh im stil feelin insecure of my current werk...

stupid internet...
damn damn stupid internet...

aiyo can i survive this job?
my syst knowledge is so weak & so r my prod knowledge!
im sure gona die frm mondae onwards wen we start gg solo...
darn!

muz reli start to look fer plan B...
fast!

Okay........
Almost a month since my last update & the whole blogspot homepage change its layout...
In-tuh-rest-ting....

Oh wells am really sick & tired of my blog song....
Its de time for:
CHANGE
But lazy...
Later larz...
:P

Hows life?
Hows life?
Camner hidop?
Is there even anybody who uses that lingo?
I hope not...

Kkz why am I writing this entry in verses?
Weird....
Kkz this ain't a poem, people...
So please don't even try to read it with emotion...

Gargh I'm crapping!

Fine, will update again...
Soonish!