Some people are just very irresponsible...
You've lend them your stuff & they can simply say,

"Ops! Girl I dropped your tights while I was hanging it to dry. I went down to search for it but it was nowhere. How much you bought it for? I will pay for it"

Siallah!
That's it man...
2nd thought to be involve in another production with this group,
I guess I will stick to my initial plan...
NO WAY!
With attitude like this,
forget it man!
True yes I do miss it all but with low mindset & disorganisation,
hell NO will I ever want to continue...

Why am I making a big fuss of a lost tights?
1: I hate to lend people my stuff during productions.
2: I hate people losing/destroying the stuff that I lend them.
3: I hate people who tell lies.

To whoever who reads this,
for your own info,
I've made the person who misplaced my eyeliner for a production,
to go & buy me a new piece...
I hunt him down each week over & over again,
until,
he came up to me with the new eyeliner...
Exact same brand,
exact same shade...

& why am I being so fussy?
Simple...
If you want me to like you,
be a responsible person...

'Cause once you are in my blacklist,
that's it...
You can never erase that label...

Trust me...

Kkz it's official...

I'm MISSING K56 BADLY!

As the days flew by,
I can't help but to think,
"Ok Tues and Thurs I'm busy till late"...
What is it that I'm busy with at this point of time?
Nothing!
I'm now super free except for days which I have tuition and the other days,
I'm a free bird!

& I must stop thinking of people coming down to Sembawang at night...
I must stop thinking that we will still be meeting regularly each week for practice...
Grrr....

I so miss the whole thing now...
From the internal drama,
the bitchy convo,
people calling me "Cikgu",
*wooohoooooooo~*
me purposely coming late for rehearsals because people are always late for it and I hate to wait for people,
the dance practice which I suck so badly that I wish I don't have to dance,
the kids antics',
in short,
ALL!

Each time I watched the vids or the pictures,
it feels as though the show's hypeness can still be feel...
As though the show is just about to start...
As though we are just nearing the big day!
But no...
It's over...
It's over before I can even realised it...
It's just so unfortunate for me that I have to be down with flu the production week...

Haiz...
In all,
I miss everything...

='(

Finally,
the show is over...
Glad that it's finally over but at the same time,
kinda sad that it have to end...
Have to admit I don't really miss this production as much as the previous productions,
but still,
the post-production blues can still be felt...

The past 2 days I woke up with the songs ringing in my head & the scenes playing through the mind...
How I wish there's an encore...
I did have fun during the shows although I was having a very bad sore throat and couldn't project the voice that well...
& sorry guys I couldn't ton with ya'll that night
*although its my idea to ton :P*
Really had to go back home to rest...

I just couldn't describe how I felt that day...
Really,
it's an eye opener...
Due to this musical,
I feel closer to my religion & culture & I am really touched by all the effort to make it into a family bonding thingy though it doesnt really work all the time...

Sigh...
When will I be in another production?
Now that I'll be entering NIE soon,
I guess I have to slow down or stop being involve in any production for the time being..
Being tied down to a bond is a serious matter..

I miss all the people coming down to my hometown for rehearsals and all the bitching sessions...

How I wish the nose can be taken off & on whenever we need it...
It's been stuffy for the past 1 week or so...
Oh manz...
Why must the sinus act up each time a production is nearing?
Sigh...

Been down with flu (what's new uh) for the longest time...
No time for recovery thanks to the tight schedule with rehearsals,tuitions, school,4hrs sleep each day, freezing weather etc etc...
No time at all to even react to anything...

Haiz..
Till at this moment,
am still trying to digest the news received this morning...
I was just too shocked to even do anything...
I just sat there at my desk & stared at the hp screen...
Thank goodness I didn't have any period for 2hrs...
Otherwise,
I wouldn't know what to do...

I'm exhausted...
Too much things to absorb within this short period....

I need strength...

Why am I feeling uneasy?
Somehow I got a feeling that something might be wrong somewhere sometime...
Manz...
Hate this feeling so much...
So many things are happening,
so much to absorb....

I just don't know how to express it...