kkz....
tis wil b a super duper fast short entry of mine...
which again,
i doubt anybody wil read it...

my dear darlinz modem or wadeva shyt is creatin farkin prob...
so fer nw...
hueva send me email or anth equivalent to tt shyt...
wil hafta wait eons fer me to rep or even read it...
thousand apologies...

so kindly contact me tru my hp which im sure even those nt readin tis entry noes...
even s im typin,
a farkin signals kip poppin up by e bottom ryt side of tis vonderful screen....
& my msn is tryin to sign in...
plus "could not connect to Blogger.com.Saving & publishin may fail.Test connection now"

wadeva it is....
pls contact me tru my hp...

*yes even late at nyt!lyf lyfless witout internet! urgh!*

~e dae Adi smile at me~

ariba!
holiez here again.....
wazzup young boyz & gyulz?!
watzie plans up tis 3 wks?
hope ya'll out der happy happy relax at e same tym catch up wit wateva lost or laggin durin tis period...
to e loser hu cowardly tag ma board usin e name "aina",
get a lyf fucker!
i may nt noe hu u r...
bt u r sure one lyfless fuckin coward

lyf's bin one unpredictable journey i sld sae...
ma temper bin at its worst pt i tink..
chil gyul...
y gt werk up so ezly?
no 1 owes u a lyf...
chill...
do wateva u cn...
if ppl bin gvin u headaches heartaches wateva aches,
sit back & smile at eir sillyness...
coz u noe ey dun set ur lyf...
no one else bt u...
cool it...
& u'll ultimately achieve ur goal...
werk it outz gyul!
its e holiez...
chill & gather al ur energy tt uve lost durin those tight period...
aitez!

wen outz wit e folks to geylang ystrd...
was damn dread to go der manz...
watz der?
al those makciks2 bwah blok gettin e latest gossip oni...
bleh!
surely nt my type of plc...
except durin e fastin mth...
wer ey gt al e bazaar, dendengs etc etc etc...
bt juz tag lorz since ey wana gt baju fer e upkumin raya haji...
oh wel ya sure...

luckily i went!
coz i met Adi Rahman!
ya, tt guy frm tt melayu radio station...
kkz....
nth great...
he's actualy a former student of ma dad at wld sec eons ago...
kum to ma old hs at yshn durin one of those yrs...
bt of corz, i wasnt even "created" yet...
yupz ppl....
its tt eons ago...
heard of him oni tru ma dad & those media...
*i hv his slenge photo back in those daes sumwer in ma hs*

so wat hpn was...
aft lunchin ystrd at TKC, we went searchin fer our stuff der...
coincidentaly ey hv tis karaoke competition & he was hostin it larz...
he & anotha guy frm tt radio station, ab sheik were restin by e stage side...
since ma dad noes him, me & momma ask him to approach adi larz...
since its bin ages ey met & he was havin his break tt tym...

so ya...
dad approach him while me & momma stood at e back in front of 1 shop...
tok tok tok...
den he notice me...
frm his lips, i noe he was askin hu m i larz...
*rmbr wen he kum to ma hs i wasnt even created yet*
so wen ma dad told him tt i m his daughter,
manz...
was he damn surprised!
serius!
no kiddin manz...
u sld c e shock in his eyes...

"ur daughter?!wow!"

thsoe were his exact werds i swear....
den he waved to me...
adi waved to me!
hakz...
its s tho he is ma fan...
lolz...
slengerly,
i juz stood der & smile at him...
i hafta sae he's cute :p
esp wen he smile...
lolz...
den he cont tokin to ma dad while stole sum glances at me in btwn...
*i wasnt dreamin kkz...momma saw it too*
omg...
i was tryin ma bez nt to grin & blush larz...
wen ey ended eir convo,
he waved at me again...
tis tym wit a huge smile & eyes...
omg...
i cld melt ryt at tt moment manz...
bt stupidly, i juz stood der agn & smile sheepishly...
lol....
hw slenger cn i b?

den off we go...
bt we did stop by agn wen der was a fashion show...
& ey both were tryin to catwalk der once e models finished modellin...
ab sheik tried to catwalk first...
den wen he ask adi to catwalk, he din wan...
finalie did try to do it aft bin persuaded by ab...
bt he stole sum glances at ma direction agn!
lolz...
or at least i tot...
coz he was siriusly glancin sumwer at wer i & momma was standin...
no kiddin manz...
even momma teased me sayin tt he din wana catwalk coz i was der...
grr...
i controlled maself frm blushin agn...
manz...

i was neva a fan of his...
juz ok ok larz...
he look waaaaaaaaay betta in person....
anws he's omoz twice ma age manz...
i oni noe him s a radio dj & ma dad's stud...
bt to hv ppl lyk him smilin & wavin to a ppl lyk me,
hw wonderful cn it b?
& e dae ended wimme havin a smile on ma face & his smile on ma mind...
lolx....
of corz der were stupid tots on ma brain...
lolx lolx lolx lolx...
;p

IRAS???!!!!
i gt IRAS??!!!
i gt IRAS fer ITP????!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg!

im so excited...
excitedly nervous!
wat m i gona do der?
hws e ppl der?
wat sld i wear?
is der a dress code?
hw wil ey accept me?
my tax sux manz!
hu wil i click wit?
wil i fare well?
omg omg omg...

thk god Tommy's my LO....
it Eng Poh ar.....
i rather die manz....
omg omg omg....

its at NEWTON!
at least its near my hs....
cn tk either MRT or bus...
finalie im a bit more convince tt semb is more or less kinda convenient....
omg omg omg...

hw wil i fare?
y m i foolishly scaring myself outz?
wana mit tommy...
i NID tommy....
TOMMMY!!!!!!!!
oi y u gv me IRAS oi!
i noe larz u werk der b4....
wth....
u betta gv me at least an A i tell u!
omg omg omg...

thk god e reportin tym is 83oam...
at least nt 8am...
i will die if its 8am....
omg omg omg...

im so excitedly nervous....
tommy wer art thou?
wat sld i do?
hu else wimme?
granny, man?
watchu guys get?
omg omg omg....

hope ders sum1 else e same com or at least near my com...
hu wil i hv lunch teabreaks tok wit?
will i b bullied? :p
hope ders no office politics...
omg omg omg....

i cnt freakin wait!
:D

lolz...
imagine tis...

A:"eh ko ader num XXX?"
B:"ader......12345678"

5 mins ltr...

A:"siak ar!mmg betol XXX tap XXX laen siot!"
B:"huh?betol per"
A:"otak ko ar!sala siak"
B:"???"

A few weeks ltr...

B:checkin e hp"XXX?eh?nih XXX yg nih.beh yg tt tym ku bag A.....siak ar!nih XXX laen ar siak"

A few weeks ltr...

B:"eh tt tym ader org namer A kol ko ek?den wrong num?"
XXX::"aah....asal?tuh kwn ko ek?"
B"......aah....."blush
XXX:"siak ar!ku almoz fite ngn dier ova e fon seh!"
B"ops!err.....paiseh ar..."
XXX:"eh blang dier sory tau!coz ku igt prank kol"

A few weeks ltr...

B:"eh ko igt tt tym ko mintak num XXX den ku bag sala XXX nyer num?tuh kwn ku ar siak!"
A:"MAMPOS.SLENGE AH KAU.BARU KAU TAU?!tu pasal aku ckp tu kwn kau kape?"
B:"ku aru realise few wEeks ago.......bdk course aku.....ku blang dier ar sal nih...den dier ckp actualy she almoz started a fight tru fon ngn ko...coz dier igt ko prank kol hp dier...Paiseh ar"

well.....sory no translation....if u wana noe e ful story, feel free to bug me...seriusly, it was e moz gunduest, slengest, blurest, paiseyes moment i eva had....omg.....i feel so....................WADEVA!
lolz...to those hu noe, go ahead & luff ur heads off....
*shrug*

wazzup?!!!!

finahlie......
one CA off ma mind...
phew...
twas a though 1 i shall sae...
wit oni 2 brains tah werk it out in 2 wks, twas a challenge fuh me...
its e 1st tym i reli put ma heart body mind & soul to a grp proj...
wel its s'posed tah b 3 brains werkin onit...
bt 1 brain is juz well...
nt der?
no comments...
period!
i reli reli reli hp cn gt at least a B fuh it...
nt oni fer ma own benefit...
bt fuh jiayi too...
dunno y, bt i doubt we cn gt tt fuh our proj...
i even doubt tt we cn pass it...
scary...
bt i dowana tk e risk & put high hopes onit...
we did put our best efforts tah it...
til we actualy feel aslp a few tyms while doin it...
late nyts & multiple head spins fer a wk...
kkz...
we actualie focus hard on tis proj on mon...
bt we did put our bestest efforts onit...
hope our efforts paid off...
oh pls god....
mk tis proj a success fuh us...

anws....
once we completed e proj at 2...
an hr b4 submission...
skip all e lects...
off i went straight hm...
gosh...
its bin eons since i went bck hm tt early...
lyk 2!
ila went back hm at 2!
lolx...
was blardily shag manz....
cnt even open ma eyes while editin e report at lib b4 tt...
s i said, i actualie feel aslp while doin it...
hehx...
& i omoz miss ma station otw hm too...
e door closed a blink once i getout...
hee....
plus i actualie swayed wen i get outta ma seat...
neat uh...
ppl muzve tot i was drunk or wat...
hehx...
waedva wadeva...

lepak wit momma at hm while eatin maggi asam laksa watchin Asian Games disgustin stupid "body builder" finalist...
twas a stupidist sports eva...
no further comments...
cn bitch boutit 10 entries long...
slp at 5pm til 11pm...
whoa....
finalie gt my deserved slp...
woke up eat & watch e lovable Ju-on wit familie...
hehx....
too bad...
daddy & me, e penakuts in da hs...
switch e channel to Asian Games on Ch5 at 1230...
ryt aft e thang crawl dwn e stairs...
period!
more of body building...
tupid tupid tupid sports...
etc etc etc....
watch til omoz 2am & off to bed we went...
wen finalie our goosebumps fully subside & feelin calm once again...
manz....

twas a lepakz dae wit e famlie...
i gt my break...
at e same tym spend tym wit fammie...
wat e break manz...

fuh nw...
off i set ma brain to Tax & FACC...

e lyf of a student in sunny Temasek

urgh FF hvnt do yet....
sobz....
cnt find e info wanted....
hw?HW????
eh i reli wana score lehz...
marks lyk shyt lorz al my module...
haiz...
ila...
ila...
wenchu gona chg?

bin hoggin e com since 8pm bt nth bin done yet...
wth ila....
head is spinnin lyk a spin....
kkz...
i did slp late last nyt....
urgh...
tmr gt tupid phototakin....
no mood larz bodo wana tk photo...
wadeva wadeva...
m owis cranky wen nt enuf slp & menses...
watch ppl....
tk coverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

~Girl cuh yuh know say yuh S to de E to de X to de Y (Pumba Pumba)~

alhamdullilah...
evrythang's back to norm nw...
it was e nicest surprise wen gt hm on fri...
pray it wil stay e same...

manz...
ive slackin too much tis few daes...
actualy nt reli slackin bt juz tt i cnt set my mind to rest frm e prob...
slpless nytz & endless tots ...
it juz sucked out al my energy...
bt finalie, gt e rest i nided last nyt...
slpt lyk a blardy pig...

nw my mind is off woryin bout FF FACC & Tax..
aiyoyo...
we hvnt started on FF...
& i hvnt study fer FACC & Tax too...
hw? hw?
mati mati...
tentu mati...
CA2 leh ila!
WAKE UP!
u wan die again izit?
last sem oredy did lyk shyt stil wana play play...
wake up lar oi!

urgh!
muz start in e morn...
muz start in e morn...
~Dutty Paul~

y is my left eye itchin?
manz...
heyz granny cn use e comp oredy!
*lalala*
~pumba~

wazzup wimme?
e reggea virus bin infectin my brain nwadaes....
~shake to it gyul~

cnt tk it...
cnt tk it...
im addicted to it!
lolz.....

~We keep givin you de Q to de U to de A (yea) to de L to de I to de T to de Y~

kkz....
i shall stop it nw....
eh guess wat?
one of my postings to crashout bin rated 6******!
hws tt fer a random writing in e middle of e nyt?
hakz....
wel u cn check out e crashout tag under showoff, "illegible writing"...
i find it ok-ok piece actualy...

wel...
cherioooooooooz

haiz...
wat gona hpn to my fam...
one aft anotha prob surface...
& each tym it aint smal matta...
no matta hw smal tho, it will end up big...

wen we gettin to get along betta...
puttin our pasts behind & go forward...
new prob interfere...
& once agin...
evrythang tt we've build wil b crash...

til wen muz we cary on lyk tis?
u kip sayin...
"yes, im tryin, im tryin"...
BULLSHIT!
its nt him i dun trust...
its u!
u r e coz of al e mishap e fam's gg tru...
u r e coz of al e shit we gg tru...
dun u dare sae its his fault...
he's tryin his bez to pls u & mk a betta future fer us...
bt its u hu kip ruinin it!
cnt u juz understand?
fer fuck sake!
create a space in ur blardy schizoprenic heart & mind fer us...
coz of u we suffer...
u blardy dare to sae its our fault & our ancestor's fault we end up tis way...
Fuck it!
Ur mind & ur mouth no longer coincide...
U've lost ur senses...
Fuck off women!

Im sory...
I din mean to b rude...
Bt wat cn i sae...
It's e generation thang...
Which i geddit frm hu else...
But...
You...

*Wakeh boruuuuuuuuu*

i'm back to hueva readin tis senseless blog which im sure is NO ONE!
m wastin my wakeh boru tym here hittin e keyboard aimlessly while smackin to akon & eminem...
folks in e dinin wakeh boruin wit granny, my own real granny, bout sum wakeh boruin dotsy...
heeheehaahaain blah bleh bloe...
dotsy bro in his wakeh boru crib killin sum wakeh boru monsta...

m supposed to do research on my dotsy wakeh boru Finance proj bt m too dotsy moodless...
wana kol my wakeh boru bestiz bt my dotsy voice is stil on & off...
almoz lose it durin e wakeh boru kenduri juz nw...
manz manz manz...

ive bin tinkin tis tru...
& i nid hueva dotsy readin tis wakeh boru entry opinion...

i wana werk again...
werk while study again...
hvnt discuss it wit my parents yet...
tho i noe ey wil nt approve it...
bt i nid extra cash...
plus i feel tt ive bin wastin my wakeh boru tym dotlessly...
& i feel dotsy al e tym...
tinkin bout my personal finance...
e fam's...
it juz mk me feel so dotsy...
i feel too free & empty....
& i cnt go outz often coz im broke...
wakeh boruly broke...
its no dotsy fun to outz witout cash in S'pore...
witout money, u r restrain to certain wakeh boru plc...
haiz...
i even hafta dotsily restrict my daily sch expenditure...

at e same tym,
i wakeh boruly dowana kip askin my parents fer money...
i wana learn to b independant...
til wen i wana depend on em?
tts y, i wana werk PT again...
i noe it'll be wakeh boru tirin & stuff...
bt i muz dotsily learn to adapt...
live in S'pore, u nid to werk hard...
u cnt dotsily survive on a single income...
u will nt survive...
Wakeh boru S'pore is an expensive plc to live...
Derfore, u nid to b ahead & strive ur bez...
I've learn my dotsy mistake e last tym i werk PT while sch...
& i wakeh boruly dowana repeat tt again...
I'm determine to excel in both, no trice, includin my fam...
Altho i noe it'll tk lotsa wakeh boru dotsy tym & effort...
I'm up fer it!

Anw...
Those dotsy hu noe me well will wakeh boruly noe tt im one dotsy hu cnt sit stil...
Heeeheee.... :p

*uhuk*

thx to e chendol tt i ate at geylang last sun,
nw i cn barely speak...
each tym i speak,
i will sound s tho ive bin choke...
yupz, e sorethroat has subside bt my voice is losin...
once a while, al tt kum out frm my voice will be...
"ergh"...
& i will strain my voice to speak out...
its bin a long tym since i ve sorethroat...
usually its my sneezin fit...
oh my...
i may sound cerazie saein tis...
bt i prefer havin sorethroat than my sneezin fit...
at least i wun look terrible wit a bozo red nose & piles of ewwwy tisues...
tt means i cn wear my eyeliner to skool!
*brims*
& its bin ages too since e last tym i had MC...
manz i so proud of it....
im so proud tt i seldom tk MC....
kehehehe....
i was oredy feelin unwell on Tue.....
& was sick on wed....
bt i oni took MC on thu...
wen my fever had run dwn...
e worst part was, i oni went into e doc rm less than 5 mins!
manz....
ppl muz've tot i purposely went to c e doc to gt MC....
bt in fact i was sick at tt tym!
& my appetite i tel u....
is worst than wen im nt sick....
i wan to eat chocz....crackers....ice cream...etc....
s tho im pregnant lyk tt....
*choy*...
& thx to my MC....
i cnt go fer CSSC....
shucks....
bin wantin to go der bt din hv e opportunity...
wen hv e opportunity, sick...
haiz....
manz i hv lotsa to update....
wil update ltr ltr larz hor....
nenek is at hm ar....
& no 1 is entertainin her....
blardy bro in his blardy rm....
folks jemputan kawinin....
waitin fer folks nw so tt we cn go to e kenduri tunang....
at e 2nd floor!
wth...
wat to do....
sedare larz....
grrr.....
kkz.....
wil update a more reasonable entry ltr ltr....

cheriooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooz

Oi bored larz!
walao weh...
slpy bt cnt slp...
wana do report bt no mood...
tried doin bt shyt turn outz...
wat e hell!

Y no body online?!
Y al online bz?!
Y no body kol me?!
Oi kol larz!
free dowana kol,bz den kol...
wat e hell!

go slp sumore larz in e aftn...
slp 2-3hrs...
pull comforter,cuddle al e stuff toys...
go larz slp tru e rain...
nw,cnt slp...
wat e hell!

u deserve tis gerl...
such improper timin u set fer urself...
screwed up timin...
cary on larz tis lyfstyle...
slp late at nyt wake up late in e morn/aftn...
wat e hell!

go find sth to do larz...
laz arnd e hs lyk no body biznes...
act s tho its ur property...
wen in fact none r urs...
u deserve tis...
wat e hell!

ah ah ah
swirl swirl swirl

yippeeee kayeeeee....
fuCkyroOo....
uh uh uh...
swirl swirl swirl...

watz more satisfyin..
1) survivin a week's sem test
or
2) a stupid crazie gerl's dae outz?

i sae BOTH!
i survive a week of blardy MST & immediately had a stupid gerl's dae outz!
if i cld, i soooo badly wanted to scream my lungs intestine al outz e second e invigilator sae
"times up. pls put dwn al ur pens. no more writing"
i dun even care hw i'll fare fer al e modules...
coz i noe i will fail it...
so watz e use of comparin al e ans lyk al my cute studious lil clsmates...
*wink2*

hang arnd fer a while & off to meet e gerls...
well s usual,i reach earlier den any of em...
haiz...
guess its retribution coz i owis md ppl wait fer me b4 tis...
hehx...
granny wit her oh-so-12-yrs-old get up,reached nt long ltr...
diva meshy caught up wit us way ltr...
e plan was to meet at ct hall to c c marina square den off to bugis...
wer else cn u go wit granny & meshy?
meshy=marina square
granny=bugis
guys=hazwani/esplanade/bugis
my god....
ders lotsa otha plc in spore to chill ppl!

well wadeva...
bt diva & me were famish...
so off we strut ourseves to cavana...
nt worth it...
spend 8 bucks on a meal...
seriusly,my mum can cook waaaay betta den tt...
gosh...
initially fet lyk eatin western...
siam kitchen or wateva...
bt der was none halal der...
oh dear...
so left wit no choice...
s owis...
i was e last to fin my meal...
hee...
seein e rate at i was eatin...
e gerls decide to set a tym limit at each shop...
15 mins!
hw e hell cn u stay at a shop fer less than 15 mins!
oh boy...
wateva larz hor...

strut ourselves to Esprit...
here's wer e advdenture began...
gerls bein gerls...
we tried on an identical blouse & took pix of it...
i was e 1st one to try...
a skirt a blouse & a jacket...
so e salesgerl gv me a tag...
i tink e gerls din rcv any tag...
u noe e type of tag u will rcv wencha wana try on clothes?
ya those big plastic tag...
so wen we were camwhorin in front of e mirror...
e IC kinda scolded us...
"helo helo...u cnt tk pic here are"
paiseh ryt?
coz we were der quite long...
so quickly chg & off out e store...
embarras embarras...

nvm...
we stil cont wit our therapy coz we al hv sth to buy in mind...
yada yada yada yada...
in e end oni granny brght her jacket...
frig...
7hrs in marina square & one pathetic earrings fer me & diva...
our aim wasnt meet...
except granny...
bummer...
i swear i'll buy tt CK bag...
any sponsers?

e dae ended wit us at Billy Bommers!
yippe....
e milkshakes were superb!
tooopid diva....
"isit halal?"
"No."
& stil....
granny & me went in...
hakz....
tatao malu teros...
bt we oni drank e milkshakes hor....
nth more...
plus plain water...
hehx...
u ppl sld go der!
it superb!
ey serve u togetha wit e shakers & pour into e glass ryt infront of u...
superlicious...
uhm uhm....

tired oredy...
we buzz off hm...
ila bein ila...
i stooooopidly din rmbr tt i stil hv e tag wit me!
e Esprit tag!
yes e one tt i gt wen wana tried on e clothes earlier durin e dae...
lolz...
oni at e MRT station den i realise...
nt enuf wit camwhorin & bein scolded der,
1 idiot even brght hm e tag...
a lil "accidental" token frm a satisfyin dae....

~fuCkyroOo~

~WHOA~
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first thang first:
my CCA pts are 43!!!
hakz...
e last tym i view it was oni 31...
nw its 43!!!
lolz...
thx to redang...
gain 12 pts frm der...
nt a waste i went...
met new frens...
board e cruise...
had fun...
nw a huge jump of cca pts...
nt a big deal to many...
bt im shock by it!
hopefuly e pts r useful fer my Uni entry...
heheh...
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back to sirius matta...
damn...
MST lyk 17 hrs frm now & im stil relakin typin away my blog...
folks summore gt e cheek to ask jalan rayer...
puih!
i wan to study larz...
i NID to study...
hvnt touch much fer tmr's ppr...
& e ppr e dae aft...
& aft & aft & aft & aft...
aiyoyo...
gona die ar dey...
hw to pass my semester lyk tis?
last sem almoz die liaoz...
tink back...
i did lyk almoz nth e past few daes slackin at hm!
bt i dun understand y i din study...
grrr....
i sure gona gt wat i deserve...
bleh...
fer sum reason i dun gv a damn bout e MST...
which worries me..
u noe e feelins wen u juz dun hv any feelins fer e events tt gona hpn?
hope u do...
manz im feelin lyk a psycho tokin to myself...
hakz...
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i miss my frens!
i wana go outz!
i wana shop!
i wana chill!
i wana i wana i wana!
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oh MST...
hurry kum & go...
dun let me hanging sufferin here...

~TC rayer outinz~

events by events...
im gettin hm ltr & ltr...
oh gosh...

reach hm at 1+am juz nw...
lolz...
e latest ive reach hm b4 tis was 1230am...
todae is lyk almoz 130am!
hakz...
bt it was fun...
tho rai & zie wasnt der...
plus CONAN...
manz...
my mum cook rendang fer u bt u din kum...
wasted...
nvm...
e rest were der to taste e tastiest rendang...
heheh...
plus it was e tiriest rayer outin...
woke up damn early in e morn to preapre den reach hm late...
aiyoyo...
luckily ltr i gt no plan...
except hlp mum cook nasi lemak fer bro's bdae...
oh well...
nt so though tho...

i kinda feel drug ryt nw...
dizzy & funny stomach feelin...
was in a daze at sab's hs...
nuraini was drunk...
aj was well,feelin sexual...
amir was blind in 1 eye...
justin was chgg is sex...
guess its e aft midnite illness...
yes,im sleepy...
slept truoutz e whole journey frm man's to sye-D...
beside man...
lolz...
it wasnt intentional kkz...
i sat der at 1st to c e pixie...
bt was too lazy to go back to my seat aft tt...
so yalar juz stay put der & slp lorz...
we were sharin mp3 anws...
dun gt me wrong uh...
oh ya & his mum was nice...
she tapao cookies fer us!
yipppee....
i felt embarrased at 1st ar...
sld hv kip my mouth shut...
lolx...
bt she was nice...
i loike her actually...
hakz....
she & mir's mum...
actually im quite shock mir's mum cn speak ml...
no offence ar...
bt ya...
:p
sportin ar both mumz...
hakz...
my mum ask nuraini bout her manicure...
funny seh...
sld gt e updates frm both parties ltr...
hehx...
in al i enjoy todae...
walkin tru e blisters & rushin fer tym...
al tt gone wencha wit e TCeans...
& i wan more of zaiman's cookies...
lolz...

DEADlines

aiyoyo...
stil hvnt do my malayu thingy yet...
closin date 10 nov lehz...
aiyoyo...
ammak...
stil gt elearnins...
kkz...
tt one ive done almoz al...
oni gt FF & CACC...
FF can do aft mst...
so tt means i oni gt CACC to do!
*tribal dance*
yeah...
go ila! go ila!
uh!uh!uh!
can go rayer..................................................
bt stil nid to study fer mst...
freakin idiot...
kkz....
nid gtg....
taz

Fuckin Shit Entry

blardy damn tiredz todae...
y notz...
woke up early in e morn to hlp outz in e kitchen...
shower hrs aft tt...
mins ltr 2 grps of ppl kum...
at e same tym...
haiz...
no tym to rest...
muz layan em...
luckily one grp is bro's fren...
minahs & mat...
dunno hw e hell he gt em...
anak abu...
quickly eat den slp...
thk god it rain wen i slp...
so i actually had a gd slp...
woke up...
hr or so ltr dad's fren kum...
oklarz...
nt bad coz prepared way earlier b4 ey kum...
den cabot to e rm to do my own biz...
dwnload music...
hakz...
kum oni wen ey wana go back...
den eat again...
hw cn i resist mee soto?
bt was too tired to move aft tt...
too bad fer me...
e table wasnt cleared yet...
shrek...
hafta clear it...
stupid bro...
tinks fer himself oni...
blardy dunno hw to hlp outz...
mum dad oso din sae anth...
reli gt on my nerve...
bt juz ignore it & cont my werk...
fuck...
blablablabla...
end up here bloggin...
so yeah...
its a shitty dae todae...
fuck...
dare to knock my door summore...
stupid bro...
wen e hell r u gona grow up...
wadeva...
im shag...
tink my menses kumin in a dae or two...
great tymin wen i wana go jalan rayer...
fuck it...
urgh...
stil gt e submission of e malay competition thingy...
yes...
im joinin a malauy competition to hlp outz a fren...
argh anotha job undone...
pluz blardy elearnin & mst...
fuck it all...

The body shivers
Longing for warmth that was long gone
As the heart beat a slow rhythm
The eyes welled of sorrow

The scars recovered
But the heart continues to bleed
It bleeds a silent wound
That is nvisible to the naked eyes

Scream!
It's screamin!
Painful silent screamin!
The soul inside is screamin!

Bloodshot eyes bulging out from the pale face
As cold sweat driped down the neck,
The mouth gasping for air
The lips curled an unbearable pain

As the November wind blew from the East
He lay there
Oblivious to the rest

Slowly...
He blew...
His last breath...
Alone...
Along the West Coast..
A pack of Cannabis still tight in his grip
The friend, that's always there for him

weeeeeeeeeee~

my short term shoppin list:

1. Black tappered pants ( must!)
2. Wet & Wild tan double foundation
3. Lady's watch fer mama
4. Piggy bank fer bro
5. Slippers
6. Hair treatment & trim
7. Portable makeup casing

tts fer nw...wait til i hv more money to complete my long term shoppin list...
hee...
*seems "shoppin list" is e latest trend fer blog entries*

Fall
Hit hard on the ground
Till it bleeds
Till blood flows down the river

Let the whole world be against you
Let them hate you
May the word "die" relate you to them
Wish they isolate you in a corner

Despise them all you want
Fill your soul with angst
Fill your soul with gore
Let them bleed

Make the universe shake with your breath
You are powerful
Do all you want to take revenge
No one stopping you

Because no one cares
All drown in their own illusion
Mesmerise by delusion
Honouring the satans

But
Is this the way you want to lead your life?
Clueless & Aimless
Control by the satan in you

Revenge is sweet
Yes,I agree
Question is
To who?

Do you want to take revenge on your own parents?
Maybe
Do you want to take revenge on your siblings?
Maybe

How bout taking revenge on yourself?
Or your god?
Why not?
Anything is possible in this aimless world

Life's a cup of noodle
Humans & nature are its ingredients
Relationships are the boiling water
Love, is the noodle

Think through

~ingin ku upcapkan~
SELAMAR HARI RAYE!!!!!!!!

yeah yeah...
raya's here agn...
nt reli excited bt cnt wait fer it...
kkz...
doesnt mk sense...
bt wat e heck...
im in festive mood!
hand's achin frm al e hswerk done...
cnt barely stretch my right hand...
hpfuly no1 grab my hand wen salam em ltr....
raye is celebrated ala kadar tis yr...
s i said,im nt tt excited...
oni cnt wait fer it to kum...
coz cnt wait to outz wit e peeps!
wel tt oso depends if evry1's free...
mst larz...
A's larz...
tt larz...
tis larz...
myk susah woo....
weeeeeee~
cnt wait cnt wait cnt wait...
bt fer sure i wil nt gt s much duit tis yr...
sobz....
i nid money...
perhaps i cn do a muker cianz....
den mebe ey'll gv...
heehee...
i miss al my peeps....
AIPS....
YTSS...
even poly frens....
peeps,if any1 of u hpn to read tis...
jgn segan jgn silu...
nk outz ajak aku!
it rhym tho...
heee....
anws....
to all my muslims frens outz der...
Eid Mubarak...
forgive me fer al my wrongdoings & may Allah grant ur doa's...
Amin...

sth's getin in e way...
sth's juz boutta break...

wat an eventful dae...
v v e contradictin...
e person tt u hate e moz turns out to b ur "secret admirer"...
lolz...
im stil recoverin 4m e shock...
altho i noe boutit b4 he told me...
i dun even noe wer to begin...
lets juz sae e end...
:p
we let out wateva tt we've bin kipin in us fer eons...
so in e end e tension among us ended in errr....
emo mood?
lolz...
i cnt werd to describe it...
neva in my lyf have i eva open up till lyk tt...
except fer at hm larz...
todae was e 1st tym...
luckily oni certain close frens were der larz...
hp ey wil kip al tis to emselves...
if othas noe...
aiyoyoyo....
malu larz dey....
hehikz...
btw yay!
i gt lathi role fer army daze...
*tribal dance*
will b a challenge coz i hafta cross culture & nid to b fast to catch up all of it...
since we gt less than 2 mths to perfect it...
oh well...
i lurve challenges...
except fer bein challenge in study....
tt i cnfrm lose...
lolz...
oh well...
hp evrythang will b betta nw...
i noe fer sure its difficult to chg a person...
bt i will try...
i will tk tis s a challenge fer me...
& i hp god will b on my side to support me...
amin...

boohoo...
went fer shisha session bt cnt tk it...
coz e friggin waiter din mk it fer us..
& we hadta wait fer more than 1 freakin hr...
by e tym e thang arrived i cnt tk it...
coz by e tym i hadta head hm...
& i din wana tk e risk to try it fearin tt it might smell...
dowana geddit frm e folks agn...
bt i sooooooo wana try it...
ya its smokin...
bt its fragrance...
it smell nice...
i dunno hw it taste...
hu cares hw it taste...
its freakin suwit smellin larz...
anws i tried a puff of justin's garam gula...
suwit...
bt i stil prefer sampoerna...
its suwiter...
ouhkz i cnt wait fer e camp...
gona try shisha durin tt tym...
plus cherry smoke...
tink tts wat ey kol it...
e pink ciggie...
suwit suwit smellin ciggie...
oh my...
im soooo wana try tt too...
well i guess nxt tym...
hpfully wen e next tym kums i cn try it...
mayb durin e camp...
well ey did plan to go mos durin e camp too...
awww i so cnt wait...
hpfully we will hv a same ppl agn...
:)

gosh ila...
pls dun go bck to ur old self ila...

a long tym since i reli tried doin tutorials...
& guess wat?
i cnt do it!
lolx...
it doesnt hlp tt e qns tt i nid to present is though...
*well at least tts wat e otha bright students sae*
hee...
im gona geddit frm tt michelle tmr...
worse,e cls is at 8am...
first thang in a morn...
& e dae stretches til 5pm...
wat a great way to end e weekend...
:D

e daes passed...
mon to sun, sun to mon...
its too fast tt u hafta catch up wit it...
no tym to breathe...
no tym to snore...

u feel hopeless...
darkness surrounds u...
u started to lose ur cool...
all of a sudden,u bkum e bitch evry1 hates...
evry1 ignores u...

bt deep dwn inside...
regrets fill ur soul...
u din mean all those nasty werds...
e werds spoke spontaneously...
& u din even realise it...

till u were alone...
surrounded by e 4 walls...
no1's around u...
silence e oni company...
negativity invades ur mind...

u r in desperate hlp...
sum1 to tok to...
bt its late at nyt...
evry1's aslp...
evry1,except u...

guilty u feel...
s u reach fer e phone u kol e person u hurt...
bt der was no ans...
all u cld do was leave him a message on his hp...
s u wait patiently fer e rep...

an hr past...
no rep...
u r in desperate nid of company...
agn u reach fer ur hp...
tis tym,u leave a message to sum else...

in it,u told him nt to rep...
bt juz to listen to ur sorrows...
u felt so lonely...
sobbin & hurt...
u went to bed...

e new dae arrive...
u stil feel e same way s e nyt before...
s ur mind drift away...
ur hp vibrates...

u pick it up & read e message received...
it was frm e 2nd person u message e nyt before...
slowly,u open e message...
"its oni natural for us to act tis way.so dun blame urself.smile to a betta dae.ur smile is wonderful. :)"
unnoticed,tears started to welled..

it md ur dae...
instantly,all ur sorrows were wiped away...
all u cld c were light...
s u read e message agn...
a smile form on ur lips...
e first,genuine smile, in weeks...
:)

thx so much...
u sld noe hu u r...
altho i doubt u will b readin my blog...
u md my dae...