Wednesday, March 29, 2006

luvsick....

nahz...
nolarz....
juz kinda miss all my frens...
its bin sum tym since we met & chill outz....
all bz wit our own lyf...
im bz wit my poly lyf altho its stil e holies nw...
aina bz findin job...
van siti nadia su syafiah bz wit eir jc exams & a levels preparation....hope ey will soar high wit eir results...
kak aisha....well she's bz wit her own lyf...poly & stuff...
tinkin back,yeah i do hv lotsa frens....
but those hu stay wit me,bringin sunshine in ma lyf,pick me up wen i gona fall...
is oni 1...
& im reli grateful to hv her by my side all e tym...
tho we may nt spend s much tym s we used to...
our relationship stil blossom...
& its stil is growing...
its true....
u may have lotsa frens in lyf,but oni 1 will leave behind a footprint in ur lyf...
countless tyms i had bin cheated by ma own "best frens"...
all those swit toks,swit memos ey promise....
r merely....
w.o.r.d.s...
none of em were true...
it juz mk me wonder....
wat were tis fools tinkin?
tt its fun to play wit ppl's feelins?
or ey juz sae it coz it was a nice word to sae?
bloody shit...
i was naive back den...
tts e reason y nw i dun lyk to hv clicks...
u may sae tt i dun hv much frens to hang out wit...
but e main rzon is...
til wen r u gona hang on to ur frens?
r u gona bring dwn down wit u under e ground in 50 yrs tym?
yeah i do feel abit lonely at tyms...
but i noe...
sooner or ltr,wen u gg out to e real wrld,nobody gona cling onto u...
no one will b bothered to b besties sworn sistas or wateva shit witcha...
tts e fact...
live on wit it manz...
u cnt run frm it...
e best u cld get will b wrkplc buddies...
e one's whom u cn go lunch and gossip bout e lady boss bout...
its rare to c colleagues stay in contact aft one of em resign....
no matta hw close u were...
but tts e fact...
its nt tt i dun believe in 1 havin a bestie or 1 sld hv millions of frens...
but at e point of lyf nw...
u sld learn to b independent...
on ur own...
it was hurtful fer me wen my so-kol bestie in pri sch left me wen she found new betta frens in sec sch....
& mind u,we even managed to get into e same sec sch...
but tts all memos...
its a learnin point fer me...
im reli thkful tt i finally managed to have a true fren...
i shant sae bestie tho...
coz again,i dowana put too much on our relationship...
e sun wen its rain,e warm wen im cold,e cooler wen im on heat,e echoes of my laughter...
im grateful to hv u by ma side....
words juz cudnt describe it...
Aainaa Mardhiah...

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