Short-term Goals in 2008:

1. Get 2 full-time admin job each of not more than 4 months long with a minimum pay of $1500/mth.
2. Get at any one period, 2 tuition assignments.
3. Treat family to Sakura International buffet.
4. Buy family the gold plated diamond displays seen just now. (vespa, vintage car, volkwagen beetle, viking ship, Leo)
5. Save at least $200/mth for driving license.
6. Buy more clothes & footwear for all occasion for goodness...(Work, familie gatherings, casual, dinner, lunch)
7. Rearrange the bedroom & get myself a sliding door cupboard or drawer.
8. Start giving green packets to children. Heehee...
9. Go WOMAD! If there's any.
10. Be nicer to bro... :D
11. Chip in to buy photo printer that Mama wants.
12. Learn to cook simple dishes from Mama >.<"

Plans after Graduation:

1. Get working experience between 1-1.5 years with both admin & relief teaching.
2. Take up dance, drum, driving license & classes.
3. Buy myself an amateur camera.
4. Family 1st before friends.
5. Catch up with old friends & cousins. (Giggling girls, Raihani, Vanessa, Aainaa ALL!)
6. Support Ayah financially.
7. Get myself a lappy, orange perhaps?
8. An "L" shape study table.
9. IPOD no less than a 8GB.
10. Get a 2nd bank account probably with OCBC.

Plans when legally 21 years old:

1. Trip to Dubai with frens!!!!!!!!
2. Starting to take driving lessons latest October

To be achieved by 30 years old:

1. A baby volkswagen bettle or mini cooper.
2. Happily settle down with 1 kid at least? haha...
3. A stable career in teaching/counselling/any work that involves communication with living humans all day....

todae is much much better...
went out wit e folks to northpoint,
bought 2 pairs of bras & 4 pairs of panties,
which kums along with a 24 bux voucher tat i used straightaway on my foundation refill & uhm wat else or a hp/mp3/wadeva cover tat is & oh ya 2 bottle of hair cream tat was at a 50% off,
ate at e fdcourt tho i was cravin lyk hell fer Causeway's Horizon's laksa,
accidentally bght Kartina's food b4 realisin tat it doesnt haf a halal sign bt ate it anws since i oredy bght it & dad approve of it plus ate e oyster omellete which e folks din lyk due to its half cook nature bt i lyk it coz i simply lurve half cook food....
met raihani to collect my kebaya back which i sooooo totalie fgt abt,
thk god i was oredy otw back hm by den...
gyuls chat awhile which was actually abt half an hr standin in front of e mrt route map,
sed bye bye & off to see e dvd rental at sunplaza as requested by dad...
bump into old pri mate Fitri...
oh boy i was so surprised to c her,
even more surprised tat she cn stil rmbr my name as yall noe ppl haf a hard tym to even pronounce SAHILA moreova rmbr it,
bt oh well its a pleasant surprised to bump into her & noe tat we actully live kinda near to each otha ryt nw!
lyk she oni live a mere 5mins to me actually...
bt me bein a doink fgt to ask fer her num fer easy contacts...
hp we bump into each otha agn....
rch hm hang arnd wit e folks watchin e stupid Home Alone 4 until i gt bored & decided to switch on my com...
& to a yet anotha surprise,
Filzah 1/4 of gigglin gyuls frm cosmetics class nudged me on MSN!
catch up on each otha's live b4 e tummy md signals to go to e loo....
i sooooo miss al e giggles we had durin tat short moment we had tog....
yupz fil,
we will definitely go to Dee's Science Centre dream once i grad & start werkin....
to sum it al up,
it seems tat i gt in touch wit al my edu's level frens todae...
raihani=sec fitri=pri filzah=tertiary
nw im juz finishin off tis entry wit boy's msn window blinkin its orange lite & e mind abit more happier & cramp wit lotsa stuff tat i wana do & buy aft grad at e same tym clueless wat topic gna b tested fer ITFD CA2 next thurs 5pm...
bravo iLa!

Don't know how to begin,
But I guess I keep things to myself too often for a long period...

Not too long ago I realised something which I really didn't expect to actually happen...
I've been thinking about it for long without realising what I was going through or feel...
It's stupid I know,
but I thought it was just another one of those short crushes...
Well,
apparently it's not...
Haha...
3 years passed & it's only this year that it knocked me hard in the head...
So when I got to know about it,
it was already too late as,
oh boy,
obviously I didn't attract the eye's attention...
Not that I wanted the attention so badly,
in fact I tried my best to appear as though I don't have the crush!
It's insane,
because for 3 years,
that's what I've been doing...
Others will be dying to let the ones they have crush on notice it...
But not for me...
& now,
I just wish I had told what I feel,
even if its not to the person but at least to any one...
Because dating is in the process...
Not between us of course,
but with someone else...
No no not me with someone else,
but the person with someone else...
It's heartbreaking because on each night on average,
I will get report on how their romance is blossoming...
What else can I do?
Continue my pretence...
There's nothing that I can do...
Can I?
I just wish you take care of each other with love & care...
Oh God,
please help me forget him,
I need to....

P/S: Hope Ham's mum have a speedy recovery...Amin
*No Ham is not the person I was referring to above*


AUGUST=ATTITUDE (bold in red are soooo true)

• outgoing personality.
• takes risks.
• feeds on attention.
• self control.
• kind hearted.
• Self confident.
• loud and boisterous.
• VERY revengeful.
• easy to get along with and talk to.
• has an 'every thing's peachy' attitude.
• likes talking and singing.
• loves music.
• daydreamer.
• easily distracted.
• Hates not being trusted.
• BIG imagination.
• loves to be loved.
• hates studying.
• in need of 'that someone'..
• longs for freedom.
• rebellious when withheld or restricted.
• lives by 'no pain no gain' caring.
• always a suspect.
• playful.
• mysterious.
• 'charming' or 'beautiful' to everyone.
• stubborn.
• curious.
• independent.
• strong willed.
• a fighter.

One of the suckiest day of my life ever...

• Haf absolutely no one to tok to or an outlet femme to let go of my feelins except this blog....
• Wore a top that make me look lyk a pregnant mother from m'sia which happen to make me look too dress up fer a simple dinner at gabe's which is oni 20 mins frm hm...
• People kip askin if i was frm werk or gg out aft tat...
• Stupid makeup day...
• Feelin lonely & down when in fact i was surrounded by more than 10 ppl e whole dae..
• Nobody gv a hoot hw i was feelin...
• All they noe is puttin me dwn with "wth iLa juz shut up, u oredy look lyk a mother"..
• Sab who kip changing meeting tym & plan which results in me wearing that stupid pregnant top when i can juz wear sth slackish since its damn near my hm...
• Feelin embarrassed with sabz huge behaviour in public...
• Takin the wrong bus which ended up gg arnd semb b4 endin up at my hs...

Evrythang juz wasnt ryt at all todae...
Nothing md me felt gd...
Kkz except the compliment from Kamesh bout the preggy top...
Thanks...
Evrthang else juz suck...
Suck big tym...
Felt bad fer dad hu was high watchin tv wimme juz nw...
Sry ayah, ur daughter wsnt in a gd mood....
I reli wonder hu my frens r...
Hu r my reli true frens...
At tyms i juz wish to dissappear & go away to sumwer peaceful wit my fam...
It's reli ok if i dun haf frens or attach,
All i nid is my family...
Eventho ey can b pain in e ass at tyms...
My family is more precious than any of my frens...
Coz y?
Frens kum wen ry r in trouble,
bt neva arnd wen U nid hlp or juz a listenin ear...
I will stil cont listenin to al yall woes,
bt juz lemme suffer myself all the troubles that i haf ok?
At least that will lessen all yall selfish burden...

MERRY X'MAS YO!
May yall have a fab x'mas, eat ur hearts out & haf a prosperous year ahead....

Lunch Party pictures comin' ryt up! =)

Spicy Cheese donuts de lurve~


Among the bags & boxes of yummylicious donuts...

Isin't he luvly? Krabi Van Erp

TC's Indian Community gathering at Wendy's...Heehee...

Half of de food wit e choc fondue...

Hungry ghosts attackin e food
Gabe gettin' high durin e games
De winnning team, b4 i got transferred...%^^$%$#$

Oi Granny! Storytellin' ah?

Maintain ur face ah Wendy...

De 3 of us...
Donut?
I'm Jesus Christ....

Oh my Edwin is juz so cute during Charade...."ur daes r numbered" Haha....
De donuts gyuls...

It's nyttym, close your eyes...*oh gosh e double chin is gettin more obvious* hee...

Last pic b4 Kameshooo left...

Maggi???????!
Some of the bdae prezzie our dear Bollywood King received....muahahahahah

Bollywood King counting his 19 'thank yous"

De greatest makeup-artist: iLa!!!! *gosh i look preggy here* =S

Special Person Award goes to: Makcik Wendy!

Fondue.....Slurp!

& so e fondue fite began....

Last pic fer e dae (nyt) b4 we set fer our crib....

ah sucha great tym ova at wendy's!
watz wit e choc fondue,
donuts,
cakes,
games,
gifts!
a fab way to destress & b nuts!

oh & e view was awesome too...
u can actually c SP,
concourse,
e brown bldg in bugis,
practicalie e CT area & e national stadium is ryt smack in front of ur livin rm!
e nicest hdb penthouse...
25th floor...
v windy,
v sunny,
v WOW!!!

we al dressed up fer e lunch & practicalie played "theatre" games...
haha...
was v fun...
esp e charade & murderer...
old skool game,
bt it din seem kiddish or lame wen playin juz nw...
its nice to b back in e olden daes fer a while...
juz sit back relax & enjoy playin while eatin & drinkin....

ppl were rude yes,
bt in e festive mood,
i din bother to put up my "shut-ur-mouth-&-dun-try-to-b-rude-to-me" attitude....
bt der were more luffters arnd....

simply fun...

okz pics upload soon!

yeah shows ova!
tired tired tired tired...
kkz update ltr ltr....
lunch at Wendy's!
Yay!

Hady Mirza!!!!
1st Asian Idol!
Unbelievable...

Fer those hu noe me well,
i dun watch crappy teevee shows fer entertainment..
bt hey,
Asian Idol dun kum each year orites...

Frankly,
i dun even noe ders a thing name,
"Asian Idol"..
yupz im tat cuckoo in teevee shows...
kum to noe boutis lyk a few daes ago?
& i stil had no clue wen it is till dad went,
"oh we cant go out fer dinner on fri-sundae nyt coz mama wana watch Asian Idol"...
lyk oh wow ayah,
u noe ur daughter dun watch teevee...

so der i was...
watchin e teevee wit mama & ayah e last 3 nyts...
scrutinisin & criticisin each Asian Idol contestant...
was very very disappointed wit Hady's extremely poor performances...
such a let down...
wrong song choices,
kkz e malay song was done good by Hady...
"Good",
not "excellent"..
ders juz nth special bout any of his performances...

truout e whole show i was bettin on either Mike or Mau to win...
so wen e results were outz minutes ago,
i went hysterical!
it was juz unbelievable!
ayah & i lost our hopes moments b4 e announcement...
we juz cnt b bothered bout hu win...
well,
we sorta bet tat Mike will win anws...
mama was al outz fer Hady...
*rolls eyes*
i support Hady,
bt its juz coz he's representing Singapore & of corz,
Malay...
hehe...
sory fer e biasness,
bt evryone even e judge were bias durin e competition...
:D

bt e second e winner was announce,
i quickly change side & scream fer Hady!
haha...
e hs would haf collapse,
i swear....
it was so unexpected!
even Hady was in shock...
i mean,
hu wldnt ryt?
he's e underdog!
al e judges were rootin fer either Mike or Mau or e least, Jac...
except fer Anu Malik hu had a lil faith in Hady...
thk god...

compared Hady's "Beautiful Day" & uhm tat malay song which i duno e title,
with e otha songs tat he performed during e Asian Idol,
i will hafta admit tat he did waaaaaaay betta durin e otha songs performances...
"Freedom" wit Jac was juz fantabulous...
he was himself & truly enjoyed tat performance of his...
even e hindi song tat he duet wit Abhijeet was great...
too bad i oni manage to catch a snippet of it...
hope e youtubers will load it online...
Hehe...

in all,
it was such a shocker tat Hady is e Asian Idol....
he meant wat he sed,
"I'm gona be e Asian Idol...Me!Me!ME!"

Hope wit tis,
he will gt de chance to expand his wings wider in otha parts of the Asia,
as well as b an international icon...

Good job Hady!
You made Singapore, Singaporean Malays & Muslims proud!

PS:I juz hope its nt a miscalculation...:p

"yay" in skool....
so "fun"...
tryin ma bez nt to snooze...
thx to e damn early 7am kol up tym...
wth....
manz i juz dno wat im crappin rytz here...
starin at e lappie sreen within 15cm thx to my genius of nt bringin ma specs...
bravo iLa...
bravo...
all aslp except fer sharm & me...
1st show in 5hrs tym...
WOW!!!!!!
m i nervous?
no...
scared?
no...
excited?
HELL YEAH!!!!!!
m debatin in my brain to snooze anotz...
by ryt wanted to wake up at 5am...
bt since e shower is juz below, ala 6am can larz...
HOPEFULLY!!!!!
sld i slp?
slp i?
e rest look so syiok slpg...
omg...
i hate to debate tis kinda stuff...
if i slp nw,
its a high possibility of me ovaslp...
uhm....
sld i?
SLD I?????

i dowan Sat to end...

da sweet bdae couple

finalie aft an hr of waitin! yayness!


da D.I.V.A.S


da eva amazin planners! =D


Dun ask...haha...


our lump of belongings....


macho ryt?lolz


da gorgeous D.I.V.A.S


hate us, or luv us...


peekaboo!


all alone under a coconut tree...heehee


great, e guys dump us fer a game...


mesh "emoin"


cey cey cey, sumbody chg aft NS seh....


yummylicious!


da cake initially....

b4 it melt!


awww........~

look at tt gaze man! haha...

omg!

cake fight begin!

throwin tym!!!!

angry bdae boy...oh oh

revenge tym no.1!!!


revenge no. 2!!! YES!


revenge no. 3!!! NOT FAIR!!!!! its nt my bdae!


home tym.....:'(


da arab pimp b4 bye bye...


so der were 3 left...


strike a pose babeh....


can c e cupid's arrow & heart in between em?

awwww....sumbody pinchin e nose......

my turn! wahahahahahahahhahahahahah

sadly, e dae hadta end eventually...

& life was back to norm once reach hm...

:'(

YEAH!!!

*tis pic taken on our 10th attempt!*