Don't know how to begin,
But I guess I keep things to myself too often for a long period...

Not too long ago I realised something which I really didn't expect to actually happen...
I've been thinking about it for long without realising what I was going through or feel...
It's stupid I know,
but I thought it was just another one of those short crushes...
Well,
apparently it's not...
Haha...
3 years passed & it's only this year that it knocked me hard in the head...
So when I got to know about it,
it was already too late as,
oh boy,
obviously I didn't attract the eye's attention...
Not that I wanted the attention so badly,
in fact I tried my best to appear as though I don't have the crush!
It's insane,
because for 3 years,
that's what I've been doing...
Others will be dying to let the ones they have crush on notice it...
But not for me...
& now,
I just wish I had told what I feel,
even if its not to the person but at least to any one...
Because dating is in the process...
Not between us of course,
but with someone else...
No no not me with someone else,
but the person with someone else...
It's heartbreaking because on each night on average,
I will get report on how their romance is blossoming...
What else can I do?
Continue my pretence...
There's nothing that I can do...
Can I?
I just wish you take care of each other with love & care...
Oh God,
please help me forget him,
I need to....

P/S: Hope Ham's mum have a speedy recovery...Amin
*No Ham is not the person I was referring to above*


AUGUST=ATTITUDE (bold in red are soooo true)

• outgoing personality.
• takes risks.
• feeds on attention.
• self control.
• kind hearted.
• Self confident.
• loud and boisterous.
• VERY revengeful.
• easy to get along with and talk to.
• has an 'every thing's peachy' attitude.
• likes talking and singing.
• loves music.
• daydreamer.
• easily distracted.
• Hates not being trusted.
• BIG imagination.
• loves to be loved.
• hates studying.
• in need of 'that someone'..
• longs for freedom.
• rebellious when withheld or restricted.
• lives by 'no pain no gain' caring.
• always a suspect.
• playful.
• mysterious.
• 'charming' or 'beautiful' to everyone.
• stubborn.
• curious.
• independent.
• strong willed.
• a fighter.