Sunday, October 05, 2008

Gargh its October!
I've yet to achieve all my short term goals that I listed...
How to?
When I keep changing job & the current one,
I'm not even sure if I can make it through the training...

Life IS hard after graduation...
Thought I'll have more free time,
more kerchiiings to spend...
Kapuih!

1st thing on the mind during weekends is:
When the hell 6pm is going to come?
Followed by:
When the hell Friday is going to come?
Lastly by:
When the hell training is going to end?

But the worse is:
Will I bloody hell get this job?????

At the back of the mind each & every single day & seconds,
I am thinking of a Plan B...
But it seems that the Plan B is yet to be settle by me...

What should the Plan B be?
Should I proceed with Plan B now & be a quitter?

Work is crazy I have to admit...
But the joy & perks are there now & then...
The people are great though I know we will be split once training is over...
& that sucks!
Different teams,
different shifts,
different offices...
Haiz....
I don't know...

Each day & night I keep thinking of work...
Did I do the SRs, cancellation, procedures right?
Any fatal errors?
Any complaints?
Did I called back the customers?
How many overdue SRs are there?
Will I need to clear my locker tomorrow?
What will happen to me if I am sacked?

The answers to all of that if it happen:
Dissapoinments & shame...

"To err is human"
but to make mistakes repeatedly is not OK to a human like me...
More when it is a repeated mistake...
That's when I believed that I am not cut for this job...
Though I did well on Thursday,
on average,
I am the worst...
1st day,
a complaint & fatal error charge on me...
& up to date,
1 complaint, 2 fatal errors & 4-6 overdue SRs...

I am truly my workplace Champion...

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