oh gosh...
I need a break...
Realised I'm getting easily annoyed this few days...
Was cursing up down left right while waiting for the bus just now..
When in fact it was only like less than 5 minutes!
Damn...

Was it my imagination or the earth was really swaying just now when I was otw to rehearsal?
I swear I felt my whole body shifted left to right...
& my head just vibrated...
plus the legs felt heavy to move due to the gravity that was pushing down against my feet....

I know I keep whining...
I just don't want to cont tuition...
It's too tiring for me...
Anyone want to take over?

PS: I tore my top otw back from gym ystrd....Urgh! Paiseh to the max!

There are so many things in life which are hard to let go off...
Some are forgiven, but hard to forget...
Or should I say, unforgettable....

At times I'm afraid to make friends cause I fear of being hurt...
I would rather shut my mouth till I'm comfortable enough to speak to them...
Most people are not aware of what I've been through or would not even believe what I've been through....
What they see each day is just a facade of me...
There's alot about me that most people do not know...
To me, it's best if they do not know...

Had a talk with a friend just now..
& I realised,
how fortunate I am to be where I am right now...
How I've developed for the past almost 21 years...
I keep thinking that I am not enough...
That I need to be more more MORE!
That I need to be more outstanding!
I didn't realise that there are other people out there who needs more support than me...
But at the same time,
I realised that there others who are just like the old me...
Who needs support & lost in direction...
Who wants to excel in life & be someone...
I can't say I've achieved my goals...
But I've been through phases in my life which I've done stupid things & commit stupid mistakes...
But all theses taught me how to grow up to be who I am today...
I'm fortunate cause I learnt from my mistakes & not carrying it on...
But that doesnt mean I'm perfect now..
I am still learning...

It's been a long time since I confide to anyone...
I'm just too busy chasing after my dreams that I am oblivious of my surroundings...

Nontheless, I am grateful of who I am today...
:D

Oh Gosh...

Superbly shag & tired at the moment...
The P5 HMT studs are Zzzzzzz....
Only 3 kids in the class & there's no excercise for them to do apart from the workbook...
No worksheets, test papers NOTHING!
Boringest class to teach...
Sorry!
But haiz...
Can't blame the studs...
I myself don't know what to teach them when I myself don't even know what have they learnt!
This sucks!

I lost my temper at the P3s before recess today...
18 studs, but only 5 who really pay attention and want to study...
If there are no such things as "rules", I would have thrown the chairs at them...
But I know I can't...
There's so many rules to follow that at times, I don't feel safe to say what I want & do what I want...
Haiz...

Oh shyt e vp just pass by!
shucks!

I'm fully awake but my mind is snoozing elsewhere...
Dammit it's only Tuesday & I'm on the verge of exhaustion-fatigue-zone out...
There's still Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday before the end of week...
Urgh!
That means no break all the way up till the following week's Sunday...
Dammit!
I need a rest man...
The Wonder Women is fully occupied!
Wooohooooo~
Urgh dammit!
So much to do so lil' time to complete...
Hate it when I can't concentrate on my task...
Hate it hate it hate it!

Kkz...
Chill babe...
Breathe...
You've been through this lotsa times babe...
Take a chill pill...

Gasp!
I haven't set the exams paper!
Oh oh....

Once you start, you can't stop...
But once you stop, you can't start...

Stacks of work to be mark + an incomplete lesson plan + incomplete oral questions to be set =
LAZINESS....

Im sucha loser manz...
Ask me what have I been doing over the long weekends?
Nothing...
Zero entertainment value...

I'm just so sick & tired of people cancelling plans at the very last seconds due to lame excuses such as "oh I'm meeting my friend" or "oh I got something on"...
Helloooooooooooooooooooo~
There is a thing called:
Tech-no-lo-gy...
Don't bull me if you say you are so tied up that you are not able to spare a minute telling me that you are not able to make it...
You just have to pick up the damn cell, type in the text, find my number in the damn contact list & click on SEND...
Even a 5 years old can do that shit...

I'm just so tired to even think of socialising...
People take me for granted just because I'm the easy going person...
At times I just feel like being a hermit & don't mixed around with anyone...
People find me when they need company or when they need someone to hear them bitch...
But when it's my turn,
no one gives a damn...

I'm just so tired...
So so tired...

i feel so unorganised...

my werk desk is all ova e plc...
my blog is not updated...
my facebook is horrendeous...
hw e hell do u even spell tat?
my hp is in a mess...
my ROOM is a disaster!

i badly nid a lappie with wireless...
yes ppl,
e lappie tat e sch provided still uses the Land Line...
duh!

*scratch head*

plus i haf tons of vids & pics tat ive not yet uploaded..

kkz im boring...

*yawn*