There are so many things in life which are hard to let go off...
Some are forgiven, but hard to forget...
Or should I say, unforgettable....

At times I'm afraid to make friends cause I fear of being hurt...
I would rather shut my mouth till I'm comfortable enough to speak to them...
Most people are not aware of what I've been through or would not even believe what I've been through....
What they see each day is just a facade of me...
There's alot about me that most people do not know...
To me, it's best if they do not know...

Had a talk with a friend just now..
& I realised,
how fortunate I am to be where I am right now...
How I've developed for the past almost 21 years...
I keep thinking that I am not enough...
That I need to be more more MORE!
That I need to be more outstanding!
I didn't realise that there are other people out there who needs more support than me...
But at the same time,
I realised that there others who are just like the old me...
Who needs support & lost in direction...
Who wants to excel in life & be someone...
I can't say I've achieved my goals...
But I've been through phases in my life which I've done stupid things & commit stupid mistakes...
But all theses taught me how to grow up to be who I am today...
I'm fortunate cause I learnt from my mistakes & not carrying it on...
But that doesnt mean I'm perfect now..
I am still learning...

It's been a long time since I confide to anyone...
I'm just too busy chasing after my dreams that I am oblivious of my surroundings...

Nontheless, I am grateful of who I am today...
:D