SHUT UP!

i reli sld learn hw to kip my blardy mouth shut...
at tyms i juz sae wateva is in my mind...
which i personally felt tt it kinda piss ppl off...
i sae wat i sld nt sae
& din sae wat i suppose to sae...
stupid gerl...
sooner or ltr,
ppl wun blif wat i sae...
which wat almoz hpn juz nw...
i reli sld learn hw to control my gap...
otherwise wateva i sae in e future wun b tolerated or considered...
stupid gerl....
y muz i owis sae so much stuff?
y muz i unconsciously observed ppl arnd me?
y?
y?
y?
y muz is b me?
y m i feelin tis way?
i dowana b e next u-noe-hu...
i dowana b tt guy hu tinks oni he is ryt al e tym...
e guy hu is damn balrdy stubborn tt nw is isolatin himself frm e rest of us...
i sldnt have sae so much juz nw...
sld hv ki my blardy damn fuckin mouth shut...
sae too much juz nw...
felt kinda guilty...
yes i dun lyk him...
bt kinda guilty aft al those bitchin...
til at one pt,
i felt i ve sae too much...
til blurt out sum stupid comment
stupid gerl...
m i too naive?
m i too dumb?
m i too straight forward?
i belif in karma...
i noe sooner or ltr bad thangs wil hpn to me...
bin havin weird deja vu e past few weeks & daes...
noe sth bad gona hpn to me...
juz cn sense it...
ppl might nt belif tis shit...
bt haiz...
i dunno hw to explain...
its kinda complicated...
bt all e stuf tt i tot,tt i tok bout will hpn!
weird bt true...
scary bt true...
i hate tis kind of feelin...
its bin buggin me...
izit natural?
or izit juz me?
m i being to paranoid?
i dowana b lyk aj...
i dowana b sum1 hu is lack of self confidence & commandin...
bt fer sum reason...
i dunno y...
bt i feel tt im turnin to bekum lyk him....
pls dun...
god....
pls dun let tt hpn to me...
pls...
i beg of u...