Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign Language

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e previous entry was a random flow of watz in e mind while listenin to Richard Marx's "ryt here waitin"...
nth personal...
sort of wat i tink while listening to it...
din expect myself to tink so much while listenin tho...

read a fren's blog entry...
several tots did come across my mind...
i noe tt fren will read my entry...
juz hope tt fren will accept wat i hv to sae...
tt fren sld noe tt im tokin bout its entry...

im aware tt tt fren recently juz bin involved in its 1st relationship...
hw e courting went,hw ey bkum a couple yadayadayda...
s a fren,i feel happy tt tt fren have found sum1 tt tt fren cn share feelings wit...
i noe hw great e feelin was to b in tt position...
well personally,at tyms i do longing fer tt feelin agn...
bt i noe e tym have nt kum to me yet....

bt im aware too,tt tt fren bin havin difficulties wit eir relationship...
bein tt fren's 1st,expectations r high...
i noe hw it feel,ive bin tru it b4...
tt fren may tink im tokin crap...
well its up to tt fren to judge...
furthermore,tt fren is involve in a big project at her werkplc...
tt juz adds on to tt fren's pressure...
ive werk wit tt fren b4...
so more or less i noe hw tt fren tinks...
& we used to bump or spent tym wit each otha...
share prob & stuf...
at tyms,we do tink alyk...
bt we r actually total opposite of each otha...
hw we click,i dunno...
bt aft a while,we sorta drift apart...
each 1 stuck to our own stuff...
add on nw tt tt fren is attach...
so lesser quality tym....

so wen i read tt fren's entry...
it kinda disturb me...
coz ive nt bin contactin tt fren...
& if we do bump into each otha,moz of e tym we tok bout werk...
nt reli bout our lyf...
lyk wat we used to do...
i admit,i missed those period...
& i do feel bad tt ive nt bin or sld i sae,stop listenin to tt fren's probs...
it hurts me s much s it hurts tt fren...
criusly,i dunno y i feel tis way...
im e type of person hu wan do thangz,bt afraid to...
i tink too much...
tts y....
its owis "othas"....
seldom i put myself 1st...
sum may tink its kind of me to tink of othas b4 me...
bt fer ma case,i tink of othas too much...
selfish...
therefore,each tym i wana ask tt fren hw tt fren doing,i kip tinkin boutit...
is tt fren bz?is tt fren's mood ok?etcetc...
get wat i mean?
its nt tt i dun bother bout tt fren...
its juz tt im afraid...
guess im brgt up tis way...
too b sentative to e emotions in e surrounding bt neva to approach it...
all i hv to sae is..
i feel sad & bad...
to noe tt fren in tis state...
worse,i feel bad tt i dare nt approach it...
it juz mk me feel bad to noe a fren feelin dwn..
yes,tts my weakness...
esp wen tt fren tt noe used to b close wit me...

haiz...

Que Sera Sera

an empty heart
screaming fer attention
bt y aint der any1 to hear it?
is tis e feeling of lurve?
or sorrowness?
m nt sure....

confuse...
mix feelings playin tru e mind...
& heart...
wers al e angels tt promised ey will b my ma side each tym a tear flows dwn?
dae by dae...
one by one...
e angels vanish...
witout a word...
nor trace...
except 1...

paranoia succumb uninvitingly...
too fast too painful...
voices unheard...
unnoticed...
words playin al ova...
too surreal it feels...
hurtful it turn out....
nth mk sense...
juz s al these wordings...
a rush of emotions tt came out uncontrol...
werdings tt oni e heart understands...
unwrytn werdings...
tt sld nt b wrytn...
bt kept close to e heart...
werds tt eventho wrytn,appears illegible

too bad...
it cld nt withstand it any longer...
out it came...
legible oni to e heart...
werds tt dun kum out ryt...
dun even mk sense...
juz a random use of vocabs...
senseless...
tts hw it came out...
exactly hw e mind werk each tym e fingers hit e keyboard...
unaware of its direction or motive...

werds...
tt r oni legible to e heart...
not e eyes

woohooo~
im back!
yeehaaaaa....
wit a new refreshin skin & a taggy box & song...
thx sabie wabie wahiehie....
wateva tt means...
heehee...
ila's back...
yupz...
aft 2 months missin,im finallie back...
manz...
lotsa thangz hpn truout tis period...
exams,reconciliation,bombardments,confessions etc etc...
fer those u noe wat im merepekin u sld understand...
anws....
exams sux,sure gona forward at least a module...
tis means i wun b able to grad wit my frens...
sobz...
muz grad wit e kiddos...
shucks...
hate it to e core...
wel tis e my punishment of slackin...
wonder hw im goan tell tis to my folks...
die...
wel i'll juz tel em im carryin on e fam & club's tradition...
*devilish grin*
haiz...
tis means a thinner chance fer me to go uni...
i wana wear tt mortar or wateva e shyt tt hat kol....
sobz...
dream wil remain a dream...
unless miracle hpn to me...
hoho...
so unlykly...
bleh!
bdae was a small bt meaningful celebration...
went to skool to mug at e lib...
*hw fun huh*
a simple dinner wit e whole familie...
had yummy mee hong kong tt mama made & a small choco cake...
plus.................
a lime green creative zen nano mp3!
yeah...
bin wantin a mp3 fer long...
journey to skool & outings had bin borin since my discman spoilt...
i dunno y,bt i cld actually felt it kumin way b4 my bdae...
spooky...
lolz...
had e parents-daughter convo bout e past...
sigh....
hw tym pass...
din realise im oredy 18 til e next dae....
lolz...
den i realise tt i cn tk up driving lesson oredy...
lol
tts e results of exams stress....
bt tinking of exams....
im sure im gona disappoint my family...
ey put high hopes on me...
i mean im e oni hope left in e familie to pursue a higher education....
my parents cnt stand e sarcasm & all those brags tt kum frm my dad's side...
idiot ppl....
spare my dad's 2 bros familie & grandma...
no matter wat,even if i forward modules in poly...
i'll prove to al those idiots tt im no 1 tt ey cn look dwn upon...
in fact,im betta than em...
tts my promise to my parents...
im no pushover...
even if i cnt mk it to uni,i'll mk sure i'll strive in lyf...
tts my promise to myself...
& i'll mk sure i'll achieve it...
wit god's willing...
i will...
insyallah...
for nw,ive to realise my mistakes & nt to repeat em agn...
learn frm it...
& pursue in wat im bez at...
lyf hv to go on :)

"wer r u exactly?im here!i cnt c u?!"

"im at XXXlarz...hw kum i dun c u?...ok i c u!"

tts hw me & ma darlin met up once exams ova...
lolz...
cartoonish coz i actually past her witout us noticin each otha...
s in reeeeeeeeeli past her...
& she's wearin bright lime green blouse...
aft ages of noein each otha we stil cld nt notice each otha...
lolz...
blame it on e blardy pack station...
lol...
its bin a muz fer us to mit up weneva we free....
or in otha werds, "wen IM free"...
lolz...
we both r bz wit our own thang...
so e oni mode of communication r mozly msn or emails...
since we both r tight on budget,cnt reli kol each otha up so often...
plus e tym constrain...
evry minute we spend togetha is meaningful to us...
ttz wen we will catch up wit thangz...
crapping,gossipping,shoppin,laughin,shoutin....
basically juz chill & release our stress...
nth extravagant...
simple bt meaninful...
hw we both lyk it to b...
so here hw our dae began...
lunch at Seoul Garden...
us bein us, e plc was actually ryt behind e escalator tt we went up...
bt we went insyd e mall searchin fer it...
once found,dumb ,me,ive forgot to withdraw money...
hadta go back inside yo draw...
e meal was v e satisfying...
altho its obviously lesser variety than e last tym i went...
bt e view was magnificient...
its s tho im sittin ryt opposite a hige gigantic silverish-grey durian...
totalie superb...
so der we went clicking her digi cam away...
once we were able to move our butt frm e table,
*we juz cld nt stop eatin*
der went our search fer singpost...
me bein me,m hopelss in direction...
so e oni way was fer me to locate e DHL balloon since its singpost is near e lib...
bt too bad cnt locate it...
pack wit our gut feelin & hopeless sense of direction...
we manage to find it...
bills settled,we flew back to esplanade....
yippeee....
pixie tym!
insyd out up dwn we "tour" e plc....
& ewww....
saw a malay gay couple huggin each otha...
lolz...
s ey walk,ey look at us...
hello!we r nt lesbo lyk u gays kkz...
lolx...
spoil e ambience of esplanade oni...
well enuf sae...
all in all...
it was a wonderfull dae...
at least sum of my worries toned dwn...
mit up again ya!
lux fer ur license & O's!