e previous entry was a random flow of watz in e mind while listenin to Richard Marx's "ryt here waitin"...
nth personal...
sort of wat i tink while listening to it...
din expect myself to tink so much while listenin tho...

read a fren's blog entry...
several tots did come across my mind...
i noe tt fren will read my entry...
juz hope tt fren will accept wat i hv to sae...
tt fren sld noe tt im tokin bout its entry...

im aware tt tt fren recently juz bin involved in its 1st relationship...
hw e courting went,hw ey bkum a couple yadayadayda...
s a fren,i feel happy tt tt fren have found sum1 tt tt fren cn share feelings wit...
i noe hw great e feelin was to b in tt position...
well personally,at tyms i do longing fer tt feelin agn...
bt i noe e tym have nt kum to me yet....

bt im aware too,tt tt fren bin havin difficulties wit eir relationship...
bein tt fren's 1st,expectations r high...
i noe hw it feel,ive bin tru it b4...
tt fren may tink im tokin crap...
well its up to tt fren to judge...
furthermore,tt fren is involve in a big project at her werkplc...
tt juz adds on to tt fren's pressure...
ive werk wit tt fren b4...
so more or less i noe hw tt fren tinks...
& we used to bump or spent tym wit each otha...
share prob & stuf...
at tyms,we do tink alyk...
bt we r actually total opposite of each otha...
hw we click,i dunno...
bt aft a while,we sorta drift apart...
each 1 stuck to our own stuff...
add on nw tt tt fren is attach...
so lesser quality tym....

so wen i read tt fren's entry...
it kinda disturb me...
coz ive nt bin contactin tt fren...
& if we do bump into each otha,moz of e tym we tok bout werk...
nt reli bout our lyf...
lyk wat we used to do...
i admit,i missed those period...
& i do feel bad tt ive nt bin or sld i sae,stop listenin to tt fren's probs...
it hurts me s much s it hurts tt fren...
criusly,i dunno y i feel tis way...
im e type of person hu wan do thangz,bt afraid to...
i tink too much...
tts y....
its owis "othas"....
seldom i put myself 1st...
sum may tink its kind of me to tink of othas b4 me...
bt fer ma case,i tink of othas too much...
selfish...
therefore,each tym i wana ask tt fren hw tt fren doing,i kip tinkin boutit...
is tt fren bz?is tt fren's mood ok?etcetc...
get wat i mean?
its nt tt i dun bother bout tt fren...
its juz tt im afraid...
guess im brgt up tis way...
too b sentative to e emotions in e surrounding bt neva to approach it...
all i hv to sae is..
i feel sad & bad...
to noe tt fren in tis state...
worse,i feel bad tt i dare nt approach it...
it juz mk me feel bad to noe a fren feelin dwn..
yes,tts my weakness...
esp wen tt fren tt noe used to b close wit me...

haiz...

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