Saturday, December 06, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
She desperately wants to be in teaching but threw her chances away with the interview she had on Friday...
Each day she crawls to work & sleepwalk around the office...
Her only peaceful sleeps are on her off days & on the train back from work...
iLa no longer have much motivation to stay in her current job..
But her colleagues whom are near but yet so far,
advised her to stay on a little longer till she found a job that suits her...
She is in a huge dilemma.
A tiny voice in her tells her to quit by end of this month...
On the other hand,
another naggy voice tells her to stay on untill she found another job...
iLa is confused!
Who should she listen to?
The tiny or naggy voice?
She have went through quite a deal to get this job...
So is it worth it if she quits now & wait for a deal to appear?
Friday, October 31, 2008
Random but ya...
Work is a bitch with nonsencical working timing & annoying almost no company 90% of the time...
My blog entries are all so boring with no pictorial entries to booze it up plus no one is reading it..
Haha...
Perhaps I should just keep it to private just like all the other blogs...
Ops!
There goes my secret...
Oh wells...
I need & badly miss all my lepak & bitching ex & current colleagues assing their way out over at the other centre & other workplace...
Plus I badly need a holiday!
Away from home & Singapore!
Omg Bintan & Bangkok are the purrrrrfect places to be right now...
Pamper myself to hell with spas, massages, cheap luxurious shopping & whatnot...
Definitely,
a sweet escape....
Wer r ze moolahs wen I nid em?
Moolah moolah moolah~
I just fucking miss my colleagues fucking badly!
I need em!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 05, 2008
I've yet to achieve all my short term goals that I listed...
How to?
When I keep changing job & the current one,
I'm not even sure if I can make it through the training...
Life IS hard after graduation...
Thought I'll have more free time,
more kerchiiings to spend...
Kapuih!
1st thing on the mind during weekends is:
When the hell 6pm is going to come?
Followed by:
When the hell Friday is going to come?
Lastly by:
When the hell training is going to end?
But the worse is:
Will I bloody hell get this job?????
At the back of the mind each & every single day & seconds,
I am thinking of a Plan B...
But it seems that the Plan B is yet to be settle by me...
What should the Plan B be?
Should I proceed with Plan B now & be a quitter?
Work is crazy I have to admit...
But the joy & perks are there now & then...
The people are great though I know we will be split once training is over...
& that sucks!
Different teams,
different shifts,
different offices...
Haiz....
I don't know...
Each day & night I keep thinking of work...
Did I do the SRs, cancellation, procedures right?
Any fatal errors?
Any complaints?
Did I called back the customers?
How many overdue SRs are there?
Will I need to clear my locker tomorrow?
What will happen to me if I am sacked?
The answers to all of that if it happen:
Dissapoinments & shame...
"To err is human"
but to make mistakes repeatedly is not OK to a human like me...
More when it is a repeated mistake...
That's when I believed that I am not cut for this job...
Though I did well on Thursday,
on average,
I am the worst...
1st day,
a complaint & fatal error charge on me...
& up to date,
1 complaint, 2 fatal errors & 4-6 overdue SRs...
I am truly my workplace Champion...
Sunday, September 28, 2008
I want to have this job.
But I know I can't pass through the training & I need to find an alternative fast.
It's only a week on the job training doing solo
& I've made/received:
1 fatal error
1 complain
Make it 2 fatal error since I gave a wrong information also...
& guess what?
All were made on the 1st day...
How demoralise do you think I am?
The 1st day & there's 3 mistakes I've done...
No doubt my performance is improving,
but it's improving in a snail manner & I've yet to reach the minimum target!
How?
I've no darn idea how to make up for those stupid mistakes...
I'm still doing my best & fighting for my place..
But,
those mistakes are huge & it will definitely pull down my performance diary...
I don't mind going for the 2nd phase but even after going through that,
what if I still don't make it through?
Won't I be wasting my time?
& it will take months to find a new job...
I don't want to dissapoint the people who have faith in me nor do I want to dissapoint myself...
I am pushing myself to my very best,
& I swear I will be terribly upset if I don't get the job...
This mind can't stop thinking of my fate of the job...
Will I get it?
Will I be able to pull through the training?
Only time will tell...
Only then will I get the answer....
Que sera sera.....
Saturday, September 20, 2008
blardy kip hanging
&*(^%$%^$&^R%76
oh gosh im stil feelin insecure of my current werk...
stupid internet...
damn damn stupid internet...
aiyo can i survive this job?
my syst knowledge is so weak & so r my prod knowledge!
im sure gona die frm mondae onwards wen we start gg solo...
darn!
muz reli start to look fer plan B...
fast!
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Almost a month since my last update & the whole blogspot homepage change its layout...
In-tuh-rest-ting....
Oh wells am really sick & tired of my blog song....
Its de time for:
CHANGE
But lazy...
Later larz...
:P
Hows life?
Hows life?
Camner hidop?
Is there even anybody who uses that lingo?
I hope not...
Kkz why am I writing this entry in verses?
Weird....
Kkz this ain't a poem, people...
So please don't even try to read it with emotion...
Gargh I'm crapping!
Fine, will update again...
Soonish!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Mix feelings mix feelings...
- Celebrated the Leos belatedx6 bdae at Amirah's Grill with the TCeans awhile ago...
- Mom is still silent towards me...
- Finally just watch The Dark Knight...
- Woooohoooooo~
- Tired & sleepy but don't feel like sleeping...
- Thinking about bringing the folks to BK breakfast later at the same time can break the silent between me & Mom...
- Contemplating if I should accompany Sabz to Natasha's Bdae party tomorrow since that we've not been contacting & I don't know 99% of those who she invited...
- Reminding myself to really tidy up my room later....
- Which means I must not go out...
- In conclusion I must sleep early to wake up early for my new job at DBS the next day...
Above are just the random thoughts that are floating in my mind for the past 10 minutes or so...
Haiz...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
the whole body especially the butt area,
is poking me with its itchyness!~
& so the day that I wasn't really looking forward to but was waiting for in anticipation,
has already come to an end.
August 11 2008.
The day Nursahila Bte. Roszelan turns 20.
The age that I've always complaint of being "weird" as it is neither teens nor adulthood.
True to this statement,
that's exactly how I felt throughout the whole day.
Neither here nor there.
Unsure of how to react to my surroundings.
Let's put it this way.
I was actually very dissapointed when I wasn't chosen as one of the frontline people at work just now.
Yes,
I badly want that so that I can at least get a little experience before I proceed on to my next job as a frontline Customer Service Officer at DBS next Monday.
But me being me,
the quiet wall paper that nobody notice everywhere I go,
was being put to the Corres team a.k.a.,
data entry.
I must've been a fool for setting my expectations so high & being all so confident about getting it.
Who the hell will put a quiet close to dumb person on a frontline?
So the basic point is,
I didn't know how to react when they announced the list just now.
Sabz got it I'm sure because she knows how to attract attention & be "oh I don't know how to answer so I'm gna try & be as funny as I can tho' I won't make sense but well as long as I get their attention. *wink2*"
Jealous?
Perhaps...
For the past 3 years I've been trying to understand people's behaviour & how many of us will always be amazed & like attention grabber people like Sabz & Wendy...
While we will always ignore & make wallpaper people like me dissappear into thin air & never to acknowledge us ever again.
Not sure for the rest of the wallpapers out there,
but I am sure hurt by all this "overlooking" of me everywhere I go...
True I hate to create a scene or purposely grab attention unneccessarily but at the same time I've yet to find someone or people who notice us wallpapers for who we are;
Quite but with substance.
I'm not sure why the hell I am writing all of this down.
It's nothing about you Sabz,
really!
It's just that I always question myself why do people always overlook & don't remember me?
What should I do to make them notice me?
Why can't I just be brave enough to make myself outstanding?
At the age of 20 now,
I've yet to feel proud nor a sense of achievement accomplish.
There is still a dark blurry oasis covering my view....
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere...~
Oh manz...
Its officially 24hrs since the end of Singfest but the brain is still ringing with the songs from the performed artists...
The heat, the dizzy spells, pushing & shoving was all worth it...
& oh the discounted tix that comes along with the Levi's T was sure worth the money...
My virgin concert event & I went to Singfest!
Haha...
Was totally lost in all the performance that I don't care if I'm surrounded by people that I don't know...
Heehee...
Jason Mraz was da bomb!
The best performance followed by Alicia & One Republic...
Awesomest performances!
Even the Dolls caught my attention...
Granny should know how I dread for them to perfom cause' cause of them,
I had to endure an additional hour for Alicia to perform...
But they were great too...
They managed to make me move...
Haha...
Panic was a bit disppointment thanks to the dear microphone..
Even so,
I could barely hear Brendon...
He was disgusting by the way,
soaking wet with the hair stuck to his face & drenched in his own sweat..
Yucks!
Ryan was soooooo cute!
I felt like jumping over the barricade & squeeze his pale white cheeks...
Manz I have lots to blog about Singfest...
I can still feel its adrenaline...
~Cause' it's 9 in the afternoooooooon~
Saturday, August 02, 2008
whenever the word "perm",
in reference to full time job surfaces,
the first thing that will always come to my head is,
"No, my curls are natural!"
*smacks smacks smacks*
I know I know...
What an bimbo I am...
But I can't help it!
It's not that I will shout it out loud through my teeth or stuff like that...
The stupid not-supposed-to-even-have-a-respond-that-dumb respond will just answer itself in my head...
I can't help it!
It's the course of nature!
*winks winks*
Speaking of which,
I'm thinking of dying my hair,
to brown (again)...
But I don't want to...
Me loike me hairs the naturalz colors.....
Its looksz nicerrr in itz naturalz colors & hintss of brownishnesss underz the lightssss....
*smacks smacks smacks*
Bad attempt in tweetering...
NO!
Must NOT even have an attempt in tweetering!
*dush! dush!*
Ok now what?
It's freaking towards 2am & I am bloody awake...
Maybe I should think of what to wear for the coming days...
Uhm...
Maybe I should ask Sabz help in this...
SABREEEEEEEENA!!
Monday, July 28, 2008
See the world,
interact with people of different cultures,
being amazed by their beauty...
*sigh*
What Mom said of me is true...
I simply can't put my bum to rest...
"Even your elder brother doesn't wander around as much as you!"
*shrugs*
Can't help it Mama...
I'm born with it...
Remember how I would climb the tables, chairs & whatever that's infront of me back then when the only thing I knew was crawling?
Being awake 20hrs a day even back then in kindergarten?
Ransacking the whole house instead of taking my afternoon nap?
Haha...
Guess what?
These habits are still stuck in me till now...
The only diference is that,
instead of climbing around,
I choose to have a freaking packed schedule...
Otherwise,
I'll feel damn restless...
Just like today,
or yesterday,
I knew I needed to be online to submit my resumes to all those employers...
But I choose not to cause' bro was using the computer...
Haha...
Lamn excuse but ya...
The main thing is,
now that I just, finally, quit my job at that horrible audit firm,
& production is over,
I feel so empty...
I feel so lost & aimless....
Drifting...
Floating around...
I'm so used to have a damn tight day-to-day schedule that once all is over,
I'm lost...
Suddenly I lost focus & don't know what to do...
Or where to start to begin...
No doubt I've already accepted the job at Mothercare,
but apart from that?
What else is in store for me?
Will there be another production?
Will I be able to travel?
Driving license?
I've yet decide what to do in the long run...
Or at least,
in the short run....
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I'm ending my work soon!
I'm ending my work soon!
I ending my work at A.S. Mohamed & Co. SOON!!!!!!!!!!
Can't wait can't wait can't wait!
4 months of suffering...
Eating curry, resem, papadum each & every single day...
Seeing accounts full of figures each day...
Answering phone calls & making out what the clients were saying every day...
& not forgetting,
feeling depressed & unsecure every passing seconds....
Oh how I am looking forward to this joyous day...
The day I'm leaving A.S. Mohamed & Co.,
creating new chapter of my life book....
Exploring options,
grabbing opportunities,
knowing myself more!
OH GODS OF EARTH & LIGHT & SKY!
DO YOU HEAR THIS JOYOUS CRY?
THE SONG OF THE DELIGHTFUL GIRL...
CRAZY WISH TO STAY ON HERE
WITH NO ONE ELSE BUT HERSELF...
OH HOW SHE CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE THE PLACE!
OH HOW SHE YEARN FOR THAT...
& WHEN COMES THOSE JOBS OFFER,
SHE GRAB THE CHANCE & DIDN'T LOOK BACK!
SHE KNOW SHE'S RIGHT
SO HERE SHE IS STANDING UP TALL,
WITH NO REGRET IN LEAVING THE PLACE!
FOR SHE KNOWS,
SHE DID THE RIGHT THING...
woohoo~
amaciam?
gerek right my stanza?
heheh....
I really miss production very badly...
So badly that I actually cried to sleep...
Boohoo...
& the scenes, songs, lines just keep playing in my head the whole of Monday...
I've never miss any of my any other productions this much...
Maybe cause I know that there will be another annual production when I was still back in TC...
As for this,
I have no clue if I ever will have another chance to be on stage again...
='(
It's almost a week since the last show,
& I'm still missing it badly...
Sunday, June 22, 2008
First thing first I must must must get rid of this annoying runny nose
*is runny nose=flu?*
by tonight before Azman force Panadol down my throat again...
Well that is if he's coming to work tomorrow...
hehx...
Okz I've lost my points to blog...
Parents in the living room with the dinosaurs from Jurassic Park is calling out to me...
It's the time for,
Family Bonding session!
*minus bro of course*
=D
Sunday, June 08, 2008
So many things are running through my mind at the moment..
It was Rachel's virgin time drinking Milo from Macdonalds just now!
I'm proud of you girl...
Sorry we couldn't make a ceremony to celebrate this joyous moment...
:D
Speaking of which, I must the most bobo bimbotic creature on earth..
I didn't know that the Apologize version that I love is actually the original version that I've been searching for! & I actually asked around how the original version sounds like & even request it to be send to me... *smacks head* This is one of iLa's classic scene...The exact same Teh-peng scenario... :P
Two sleepyhead incidents happened this week:
1) On the way back after returning the robe, I slept all the way through the bus ride till a passenger had to wake me up to get off at the interchange. How embarrassing can that be? When in fact I actually felt the bus drove over the hump & I was actually thinking to myself "oh finally the Mats are the back are getting off...How come they didn't get off at the interchange?"
2) & just now on the way back from rehearsal, I again, slept through Sembawang station...Woke up to "Door is closing" with Sun Plaza smack right in front of me...But at that point I was still in a daze & was confused by how come it was Sembawang & not Admiralty?...Haha...So I just decide to go to Yishun & take 856 back home from the interchange...
Plus I didn't (get the chance to) tap my EZ-link when boarding & alighting from the bus on the way returning the robe...& I was like a person away from the driver...Hehe...But that's good..At least it saves my transport a little...Yes I'm cheapo!
As you just read, it's been one busey week for me...But I'm still with my ground:
MRT are waaaaaaaay better than bus!
& cars of course...Taxis & buses are just so annoying with the leather seats smells plus the bumpy rides...Just so nauseating & bumpy...Can never understand how can anyone enjoy rides from these transport modes...
Which is why I ask Daddy to send me to the photoshoot at Jason's later!
Just simply hate bus rides...
Why can't all roads in Singapore be straight?
*Pun intended here*
Which also reminds me,
anybody know how to connect your EZlink value to GIRO?
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Like really!
The darn rashes that I've been complaining about are not getting any better!
Instead,
I think it's getting worse!
Omg omg omg....
What's wrong with me?
Can it be cured?
Will this rashes stay with me all my life?
Or am I simply having food allergy?
Oh God help me!
I can't stand the itchyness!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Maybe.
Am I looking forward to the ceremony?
Was.
Am I going out to celebrate after the ceremony?
No.
Am I excited for the ceremony?
Was & NO!
I am one sad pathetic lonely soul to receive the scroll tomorrow...
No classmates to hurrah with,
no buddies to grab hold of & jump around in our robe with our certs and scroll in our hands,
no celebration to look forward to after the ceremony,
no lecturers that I can't wait to meet and catch up with after the ceremony,
basically nothing to look forward to.
All I have are the robe and a set of graduation get-up that cost me over 100 bux,
plus a super annoying mum who is being fucking petty over what to wear and a pissed off dad.
If this is the case,
I DON'T WANT to go for the ceremony!
It will be a fucking waste of my time,
my energy,
& also my mood.
I rather go to work and slog myself with the accounts all by myself...
It's no big deal right if I don't attend?
Mum is probably going to continue feeling giddy tomorrow and we all may just end up not attending the ceremony at all!
Nobody going to miss me,
nobody going to ask around for me...
They wouldn't even bother about me!
They would just think that
"Ouh iLa didn't make it is it?She's repeating?Aiya expected larz..."
I don't want to attend!
I don't want to make a fool of myself!
I don't want to break down during the ceremony!
I don't want...
I don't want...........
I've been looking forward to the ceremony since the last day of exams...
Now,
it's all gone....
Why am I being punish this way?
Monday, May 26, 2008
Managed to gather all the receipts that's been lying around in the mirror!
The results?
One whole plastic bag..
:P
But still,
the room is not yet completely tidy up...
I need a day just for myself in order for me to do that..
& I really mean 24 full hours to myself...
No disturbance!
Gosh the weather is freaking humid at the moment..
Am feeling super sticky but is very late to take a shower..
Oh wells I'm gonna do that anyways in 4 hours time...
Hehe...
Uhm I need to reorganise my cell's contact list too...
The inbox is full of messages from new contacts & I just can't save the number 'cause the phonebook is full...
Urgh!
Sorry people if I suddenly send ya'll weird messages...
Most probably those aren't for you....
I practically have to remember who send me which messages in order for me to contact that person...
& my inbox is forever full due to all the messages that I keep...
Now you know why I badly need a full day for myself right?
:D
Ahhhhhhhhh Beat It on air!
Kkz I'm just feeling so unorganised at the moment...
Plus sticky.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Didn't realise this blog is gettin rusty!
The picture is old,
the last entry dated almost a month ago,
the blog songs no longer playing,
& the blogskin is so dull!
Haha...
So let me see..
What have I been up to?
Ermmm.....
Working,
tuition,
gyming =D,
rehearsals,
& slacking with the family...
Yupz that's all what I've been actively doing...
Slightly more kerchiiings but not much spare time to spend with the peeps...
Sad case uh?
Sobz sobz...
Didn't even wish Meshy on her 20s....
I called you lots of time babe!
But your line is either engaged or you didn't pick up my call...
Boohoo~
Bad iLa!
Bad bad iLa!
=<
Aiya my life is very mundane larz now...
It is so monotonous that I can really predict what will happen the next day...
What type of tasks I will be doing in the office,
what time the boss & his wife will come,
what will I be doing after work,
how my weekends will be like...
Grrrr.....
But its ok...
I shall endure & adjust to it...
All for the sake of reaching my goals!
Yes!
My GOALSSSSSSS!
Muahahahahhahah....
But manz...
I really miss school life...
I miss my makan kaki...
Why larz each time you SMS me when I'm eating?
Memang dasar muke makan ah ko!
Hahah...
& oh!
Speaking of makan,
reminds me of Khadijah & her huge appetite..
Which reminds me of the spy adventure we went through last Friday...
Haha....
But I am still very positively sure that they are not blind!
Dayum I should have stop you from "donating" to them...
Assholes!
Enough is enough larz hor iLa...
I hope our plan on hor this Friday, girl....
Fig & Olive ah set!
'Cause Sakura as of now,
4 other different group of people have book me to eat at that place...
Bleh!
=P
Omg the parents is out merayaping again...
See,
my parents are more happening than their daughter....
Ayah,
sponspor me driving lessons ah..................................
*winkx*
Orytz I'm bored & boring...
kkz shall go back to my shows...
Taz....
Sunday, April 20, 2008
especially dear IRAS...
But I really want to work in IRAS.
& I don't think I'll last that long in the CPA firm...
Gragh!
I just feel like running up to the HR department of IRAS & lay my resume contents in front of their door,
then go down on my knees & sob hard till they take pity on me & finally accept me as their new staff...
It is just so damn tiring to even wait for their call day in day out...
Hoping for anyone to call me down for interview..
Or even opening up my email & the first I see will be from IRAS HR...
Garghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There's a free entry to Zouk this Thursday 9pm-11pm!
Damn!
Anyhoos,
went for a lil' tour around e California Fitness in Orchard just now
& am seriously impressed by the facilities & programmes provided...
Machines in every nook & corner,
aerobics classes in the form of dances going on in the rooms,
people & more people working out...
Was tempted to just join in the classes but oh!
Wasn't in the proper attire...
Bear in mind I was in slippers & dress top with jeans...
-_-...
It wasn't even a planned thing to go for a tour in the gym but long story short,
I was free so why not...
Then came the exciting part of all...
Weighing time!
Lolx...
Wanna know what's my weight?
70KG...
yupz...
a whopping seventy kilogram...
That was before I ate...
Imagine after I eat?
Hmmmmm....
Haha...
I was damn shock by the results...
Especially when the fats bar keep going up & overshoot the required fats needed for my height...
But the muscles are in the acceptable range...
So are the nutrients & proteins...
According to the device,
I need to lose weight on the arms & thighs area...
Hoho...
Just as I thought of...
It's not that I don't want to subscribe,
but it's very expensive for a person like me...
I still haven't found a job that I like,
ehem ehem IRAS,
which means that I still don't have a stable income...
The subscription is a whopping $800++ larz ok...
If I subscribe just now it would only be $500++..
That's the amount in my bank larz hor...
I still need to pay for my lenses & EZlink larz & get Mama a gift for Mum's Day...
Plus save up for another bank account & driving license...
Life evolve around money...
Kkz back to the story,
so I was instead given a VIP card in which I am given a 2 weeks free entry to the club in Orchard...
Not yet gotten it though cause' it will be a waste since I wouldn't be starting the workout today...
But the rest of the day,
spent slenge moment with Aini...
Haha...
We took 2 hours before we finally rest our bum on the dinner chair...
So typical of us...
Duh!
Gargh I so wanna lose weight!!!!!!!
I need to shed 13KG to be on the acceptable weight for my 159cm height...
Yawza!
Friday, April 18, 2008
Granny Madonna i shall say...
=P
Woah still cant forget her Live Earth's La Is la Bonita...
Am still mesmerize & goosebumpyfied watching the vid...
Imagine being right there smack in the middle of the tight crowd..
I swear if i don't feel a thing,
I'm not a human being...
She makes me wanna dance!
La tino extravanganza!
Madonna de magnificent!
Kkz whatever it means it just means whatever it means...
=P
Idiot bro just close his bedroom door & sleep without switching off the dining room lights...
Ass...
Am high~
High high up in the sky~
Weeeeeeeeeeee~
Sushi send you flying...
Yatta!
"Si gedi geda degedi ge da"
For those of you who don't know,
that is the lyrics that those 2 Romanians that duet with Madonna in Live Earth's La Is La Bonita sang...
Well at least that's how it sounds to me...
"Se gedi geda degedi ge da"
=P
I just wanna dance!
ARIBA!
I need to change my blogskin...
It's annoyingly boring...
Se gedi geda degedi ge da!
Am still very stuff from all the Nippon food!
Think I ate too much that my waist on the right is aching...
Haha...
Been out on eating outings since last Wednesday...
A full 1 week..
Muahahahahhaa...
Me gonna gain 10 more kg....
Lookout for a fully bloated & puffy cheeks iLatHi!!!!
Lesson learnt from a buffet:
- Never ever take anything more than 4 pieces...
Even if it's meant to be shared among the people you came with... - Always start with a flow...
Meaning,
don't start off with a desert...
A very very bad choice... - Don't be so greedy & take everything at one go...
There's plenty of food even for an elephant... - Eat slowly...
The faster you eat,
the faster you feel full...
Which is no good cause' that means you can't eat more!
- Take oni a maximum of 2 glasses of water,
preferably plain water...
go gorge yourself with food!!!!!
Aiya too bad we didn't take much picture...
No,
we only took the picture of the food in the beginning...
Kwang3...
& aiyo...
Uncle weak lehz...
Halfway full oredy...
aiyo...
Den luff at Apple
*pronounce as "Air-pow*
till my nose turn red lyk Rudolf lidat til e end...
Piangz eh...
Haha...
& summore wah lao kena torture by tat song...
3 tyms lehz listen to tat in less than half hr in 3 dif places...
Wah kaw lehz!
Kkz I shall type in the proper sentence back...
Haha...
Kkz shall put up whatever pictures that I took recently,
soon...
Right now,
let's Snoooooze~
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Should be the virus...
Now even the page freezes or load halfway...
Darn...
Clever me for opening the link sent by blueicez@hotmail which I have no idea who that is but it just seems very absolutely familiar to me...
& now the whole com is going through a disaster!
Oh kkz not that bad but still,
it's lagging!
On a lighter note,
Yippeeee!
Got the chorus role for the play!
Woooohooooooo~
Can't wait for rehearsals to commence again & all the intensive crazy trainings to start...
Going to be interesting...
Well though there's already some dissapointment at this point...
Hope it won't continue or get worse...
Am really excited at how the show & rehearsal process going to go...
Yayness!
Sinking back in,
am really dreading to start work on Monday...
Been having mix feelings of the whole work & environment & all...
Praying & trying hard to get a place in IRAS...
It's my calling!
Accept me oh my Individual Income Tax!
Me want to work in your department!
The environment is absorb into me!
I'm emotionally attach to you!
Oh my IRAS!
Accept me!
Speaking of which,
we were told not to come to work today (Wednesday)!
Reason:
It's the last day of the filing & so IRIN system will be lagging...
-_-...
L.A.M.E...
They came begging to us when they need us & simply told us to stop work when they no longer need us...
Wadahell....
Oh wells...
This Friday will be my last day before I fly off to that pathetic small messy CPA firm in Bugis...
Kkz I shall not pollute my mind with the firm's negativity or else I will suffer hell there...
Hey I will be getting free (INDIAN) food for lunch each day...
Not bad ey?
& it's in Bugis...
Which means more (uncessary) shopping!
Bet in a few months time (if I'm still stuck in that pathetic firm) you will see me walking around Bugis in slippers & untidy face & hair...
Bugis will soon be the new Sunplaza for me...
& Lot 1 & Novena will soon be the new Bugis for me...
Nyehehehehehhe
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Am so lazy to go to work later...
Still a lil' tired from the chalet..
Maybe due to e annoying rashes too...
Go away you moron!
You irritating manipulative bacteria!
Go away!
Coz' of you I can't truly relax myself ova e wkends at e chalet...
Coz' of you I've been feeling so restless..
Coz' of you I have to bring a bag everywhere I go to fill the powder bottle & med...
Just get out of my life ok?
On a lighter note,
yeah e D.I.V.A.S made our way to MOS on Sat nyt...
Can't say I enjoyed myself as much as Zouk coz' oh well,
e music aint that great,
*they mix only half of all e songs!*
I was already snoozy right from the beginning,
my shoes gave way which means can't really dance,
& it was so jam pack!
We could barely move & there was this les we think that was tryin' to hit on us..
Yucks!
She was rubbing against me when I tried to rest my bum on e stool at one period of time..
& ya,
the baggage room was full at first...
& dancing with a bag on was a total hindrance to me..
so I just decided to let granny hold it since she was e only one among us that could dance with a bag on..
heheh....
bt e retro room was heyhey!
cool floors I would say...
plus lotsa whities...
*grins*
it was an older bunch there but they were waaaay cooler than Smoove...
Will never hit Smoove ever again...
Nah ah...
Guess we were all snoozy at that point so ya...
Well,
I was feeling kinda statue like thx to e shoes
& granny was dazing off in e end...
perhaps oni mesh was e awake & bright one there...
& oh ya!
a fight broke out in Main & there were securities running around with torches to e scene...
e guy gt loose & went back in,
& ey hafta run back in,
with eir torches to gt him out again...
lotsa drama hpn while we were der...
haha...
bt im just too lazy to type it dwn...
kkz I shall snooze & gt back to reality in 5 hrs time..
May e rashes go away!
SHOO!
May I got a job by end of the month...
Chioaz....
Friday, March 21, 2008
I'm so bored...
What the hell am I doing at home on a Public Holiday?
Such a loser...
-_-
Damn the neck is having its stiffness again...
But thank God the rashes has gone...
or subside for now...
But the legs especially the right tigh is still aching from yesterday's rehearsal...
It was fun though!
I've never done those kind of practice before & it was really refreashing for me...
Though the legs aches like hell after that...
Kheheheh....
But I'm bored now...
I realised I have limited number of close friends that I can or am comfortable to ask out with...
Haha...
Lots of acquintances but teeny weeny bit of close friends...
My life is boring I know...
Kwang Kwang Kwang...
It's more boring now that I'm not schooling for the time being...
Working life IS boring I'm sure for now...
Plus saving money is a chore too...
You really have to scrimp & tighten your stomach for it...
Well at least at the same time you are able to lose some weight...
Which,
I did manage to do that until recently the colleagues started to buy donuts & pringles & chocz & cakes & whats not...
Guess I'll remain this weight & above forever...
The afternoon weather is not having pity on me either for continously raining on each & every weekends & Public Holidays...
Great...
Been rejecting lots of invitation to go outs thanks to the need of saving money...
Now I know why the number of people asking me out is decreasing...
Nice job iLa...
BravaDo!
But I don't like to go out only for a few hours..
That's the problem with me...
I don't really like to go out after werk cause' we can only hang out for like what?
3-4 hrs?
Then we'll have to rush for the train/bus home & sleep early for work next day...
Plus of course,
the constant out-of-the-world nagging from parents...
My life a bore...
I've yet found a loyal slacking partner or groupies that I can ask out anytime & anywhere without worries...
Oh well...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
move on to e right....
up & up it went till it reaches e hips...
it circle around it...
bit by bit...
it continued to make its way up to the neck...
finalie the ears...
Ah the sensation...
thingling,
pinchy feeling...
GO AWAY YOU STUPID RASHES!
I FEEL LIKE A MONKEY ITCHING & POWDERING MYSELF WITH PRICKLY HEAT POWDER!
IT'S ITCHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
I'm soo-oh-oh depress...
Tons of job application & countless interviews...
But yet I didn't learn my lessons..
URGH!
Just got to know that the application to NTU for Diploma grads is over...
Well I just got to know too that BAsc in Edu need to be applied together with NTU admission period...
What am I talking about???
Basically you need to apply both to MOE & NTU if you want to do BAsc in Edu in NTU...
Shucks...
I'm so lost...
Even Nuraini who initially plan to continue studies & inactively finding job been accepted by Credit Suisse...
Guess academic is everthing in today's life eh...
Especially if you are living in Singapore...
Sigh sigh sigh...
Im even more depress now...
The girls in the office keep on talking about Uni admission & what course to choose bla bla bla...
Those girls are blardy younger than me & they are talking about Uni!
Wassup widat manz?
I just need a job fast...
Or I'll just gain more pimples in my face & lack of clothes...
Thursday, March 13, 2008
She turns in as early as 1030pm & wakes up at 5am each day...
Around 2pm,
she will automatically switch on her napping mode & doze off subconsciously...
Each day,
she will have her breakfast at 7am,
lunch at 12pm,
& dinner at 8pm without fail...
By 930pm,
her head will start to bob up & down...
Her daily routine is such a wonderful & adventurous journey that she is always left speechless by the question,
"How's your day?"
She had done & gone through so much each day that she is always unsure what to start...
& it seems that people are always amazed by her response...
They are sure impressed bt her answers!
~Post graduate period is tougher than academic period~
-_-
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
It's more challenging!
Job applications...
Pondering after pondering...
Decisions upon decisions....
Plans plans plans...
Study or work?
Shopping or save money?
What should I do on the weekends?
How come no one is willing to hire me?
Questions upon questions after questions....
It's madness!
All you think of each day is,
How many hours to lunch?
Will there be any job calling up for interviews?
Where can I get a job?
Why isn't there any job calling me up for interviews?
Should I really apply for NIE now?
Btw I think I'm having allergies...
The legs are itchy & spotty!
I'm scrathing like an idiot as I'm typing...
grrrr....
Oh God please help me...
I'm suffering more than I suffered back in school...
Well not really...
But all this not getting any job yet is really driving me nuts...
I can't thinking of savings each day....
& I'm still scrathing like crazy now!
GARGH!!!!!
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Pretty mundane.
Given the fact that work is simply sitting on the chair infront of the slow speed computer in the makeshift office in the meeting room on the 19th floor.
While at the same time,
applying for other jobs with good pay & full time benefits.
In addition,
having a lookouts for tuitions.
Not forgetting,
endless job applications and countless job rejections.
Have you been partying hard?
Hell NO!
How are you supposed to party when all you have left is a miserable zero in your bank account?
The pay that is coming in tomorrow isin't helping either as it will be a measly 150 bucks.
150 & nothing else.
Seems like the chalet that is coming up will not really be a chalet for me.
Haha...
Hope there's sponsors for me during the chalet.
It can't be that bad right?
Haha...
You think I'm kidding?
Put it this way.
S$150 - S$50 (Transport money) - S$30 (Contact lense solution) - S$18 (Hair cream) - S$10 (Chalet money)= S$42
Erm...
How do you survive with S$42 in a month?
Per day maximum spending: S$42/31 days= S$1.35
So what can I buy with S$1.35 per day?
Have you ever ask money from your parents?
My parents?
Mum a housewife & I can't ask money from her 'cause she herself doesn't have any income.
Dad wouldn't support me anymore as I'm already out of school.
Elder bro not earning much & anyways, since when does he remember his lilttle sister?
So thats a big NO in getting money from my family.
& anyways,
I'm not a leech in sucking out money from my own family members.
It's good that I'm train since young to be financially independant & responsible.
So if I go broke or in need of cash,
it's my own problem in solving the problem and finding the solution.
How I save my money & how I spend it,
I will be responsible for the outcome.
But I do splurge on stuff when I have the resources.
At times,
I'm just lucky that my folks buy for me gadgets for birthdays or nessecities when I really need it.
That's all.
I've never ask a single thing from my parents since the day my Mum retire to be a housewife.
& I'm proud to say that I learnt to be financially independant since young.
So are you happy with your life?
Of course I am!
Although at times,
I do wish things are much better.
More cash,
better work,
better education,
more friends who understands & be there for me,
more outings...
But I am happy the way I am right now.
Life is tough I agree,
but that just make it more interesting.
If each day is the same & everywhere you go,
all the friends you have,
are the same,
life will be more lifeless.
You wouldn't experience the feeling of anger,
hatred,
love,
happiness,
joy!
Challenges & changes makes you a better and tougher person with each experiences.
I wouldn't be who I am right now if not for those experiences both bad & good that I went through for the past almost 20 years.
Peace out.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
& I just lost my initial intention of blogging...
Haha...
Argh I got so many dates to fulfill!
Shopping with Raihanah,
Outz with the giggling girls,
Jalan Jalan Carik Makan with Shima de Boncet,
Sipot sedot "buffet" with Aini,
Cuzzies outings,
Dad's bdae,
Parents 25th Anniversary (well Mom hinted for me to bake for them &*^&^%^$%^),
CHALET!!!!
kkz I'm hungry..
Tazzzzz
Friday, February 29, 2008
Singapore,
the tiny island with well-known world-class infrastructure,
let a dangerous man on the loose despite tight securities.
Common questions on all of our minds:
How can that happen?
How did it happen?
What actually happen?
What were the securites doing?
How did he manage to escape without a trace?
Where is he now?
I'm not sure about all of you,
but I'm am,
yes,
still am,
shock by the news.
Many especially kids regard this as something thrilling.
I mean hey,
Singapore is so well-known worldwide for our perfectionism or shall I say,
Kiasuism behaviour.
Everything also must be number 1 larz hor right?
Number 1 airport larz,
the first country to hold the YOG larz,
the first country in SEA to have the longest tunnel larz.
the first this larz the first that larz.
Everthing also must be good one mah!
So once a lifetime this type of thing happen,
OK what!
Quite "cool" one mah.
To me,
I think its a shame to Singapore & Singaporeans,
to have things like this happen.
We are always aiming for the best in everything that we do & we always succeed in achieving them.
We are always a role model to other countries to look up to.
We are always proud of our achievements.
We are the best.
Nothing but the best.
I'm not blaming the authorities or securities at the detention camp about the escape.
Anything could have happen.
Not much is known about this animal.
I mean,
for all we know,
he's a male Malay Muslim,
which I beg to differ because Islam doesn't teach its followers to kill others,
to me,
he's a piece of cow dung in the shape of a human,
with a supposed limp,
to trick people into thinking that he really have a limp so that the authorities will send out warning to the public about a limp terrorist that just escape from the detention camp and is on the hunt.
Think about it.
The statement above may most likely to be true.
Ask yourself,
does he have a distinct face like perhaps Osama that people can by one look,
recognise straightaway?
I doubt so.
So,
with a limp,
he can easily trick the authorities into thinking that oh,
he really have a limp,
let's put that as our features of him.
You may not know.
People of his capabilities are able to do the impossible.
Like perhaps make himself disappear when he when into the toilet and walk around the detention camp out of the gate without being detected.
Walk through the walls & out of the gate.
Hypnotize the guards there & make them sleepy or drowsy while he made his gateaway.
Or even just stall or security cameras & detectors and made his way to the gate avoiding them.
It sounds crazy,
but I wouldn't be surprise if it was really what happened.
Although the detention camp is far away from me,
I admit I'm still scared.
He may already out of the area & roaming around the island.
The worst part to me is,
what if he really doesnt have a limp?
It will be very hard to detect him.
Unless there's a detector that is planted in him.
But if there really is a detector in him,
why doesnt the authority catch him straight?
Perhaps it's one of the authority plan to trap him?
Maybe they know that he's going to meet up with one of his man perhaps that Mat Top so the authority purposely let him take some time & act once they meet?
I don't know.
These are some of the thoughts & questions that struck my mind once I heard the news.
I'm worry for the safety of my love ones.
With Dad working near the Woodlands checkpoint.
Bro working at the airport,
me going for interview at CAAS coming Wednesday,
the safety of all my younger cousins...
I'm really worry about all of our safety.
Frankly speaking,
I don't feel safe to even get out of the house.
I just fear that this animal already meet up his man & planning another bombing.
He didn't succeed to blow up Changi Airport & Yishun MRT the last time,
maybe this time?
I'm really scared.
Our lives are in danger but some stupid people think that this is a joke & thrilling.
Such mindless and immature thinking.
To those who take this as some other criminal story,
especially that pea brain shallow-minded 58 year old Pak Cik who made that hoax call,
go to hell!
I pray that you will be arressted soon & prosecuted straigtaway.
Amin.
Yipeekayeh~
But I'm just wondering how to source for kerchiingz to survive up till then...
What's with e chalet that is coming up,
my neccessities that need refill,
such as contact lenses,
which I have to buy due to my astig...
haiz....
my hair cream,
shampoo,
conditioner,
eye makeup remover,
one & only belt that's gona split soon,
footwear that are just inappropriate & uncomfy to wear for all sorts of different occasions,
a hair trim...
The sides are getting thicker & it's annoying me...
Hope I get the job in CAAS...
Well I keep hoping to get a job soon but always blow up the chances...
Grrrrrrreat...
Kkz...
I actually wana rant out bout e manhunt...
I shall do it on the next entry in case you readers will get bored with a super long entry...
Stay tune.....
Thursday, February 28, 2008
i cleared al my modules!
GRADUATION DAY,
HERE I COME!!!!!
3 yrs in tat poly...
wow...
hw tym flies eh?
frm e lazy 1st yr...
to e busy 2nd yr...
fantastic ITP,
well wit a shitty pay of corz...
tsk tsk...
up til e jam pack adventurous & fun filled 3rd yr!
not fgttin e lecturers tutors & ehem,
classmates...
bad memories,
tears,
laughters,
sweet memories,
fame at e wrong tym wrong plc...
haha...
al those skippin of classes,
"chillin" patheticallie in sch in btwn lessons & after sch...
& not of fgtin,
productions...
i feel proud of myself to b graduatin soon...
from SP!
in Diploma in Accoutancy!
wooohoooooo~
wel tho my GPA is slightly below ave....
:P
bt hey!
im a graduate!
kum May 29,
i will officially b a Graduate of Diploma in Accountancy from SP...
cheers
Monday, February 25, 2008
How e hell it got der???
& I'm not sure if I'm hungry...
Wadz new eh?
Duh!
Juz enjoy e random pix taken recently...
2008 is sure a Volksie-Cooper year!
e 2nd baby tat I found tis yr...
sittin quietly in one of e parking lot in T3..
wit flower petals alongside strips of baby blue lines acros..
against a wholesome white background...
bet e owner is a Sugar Pie with lilies surround e house...
each dae wakin up to water it...
wit e wind blowin tru e hair...
urgh!& den,
ders e classic blackout at Changi Village...
juz in tym wen it was our turn to order...
great...
well at least i manage to play arnd wit e digi in e dark...
bt since it's juz a norm basic cam,
e best tat i cld capture was tis couple romantically havin eir dinner wit e guidance of eir superb hp lite in e dark...
e lite tat came off frm e hp was darn gd tat i could easily capture em witout flash in e darkness..
well,
of corz,
i took e risk of takin em despite tat ey were juz sittin diagonally behind me..
hu noes e guy came up to me & snatch e digi away...
tsk tsk... off we zoom to Changi Beach once we got our food after e Blackout tat went ova 10 mins...
those hawkers reli shouls standy torches or candles in tyms lyk this...
*(^&%$&^$%$...
so ya...
was bored & decide to tk pixies of e parents under e coconut tree...
e small round lite tats behind em,
tat was e moon...
heheh...
s soon s e batt went flat,
planes kept flyin above us...
grrrrrrrrreat...
-_-
Nah...
juz anotha random borin pic tat i took while under e coconut tree...
love e colors...
gottit while i was fiddlin wit e digi figurin out e functions...
& ystd,
went to e SOKA Culture Centre to watch e "Thins"...
it was easier to understand den e 10-10...
ey were actually more comfy & juz ben emselves...
which was gd...
tho i actually prefer e 10-10 version...
tmr is my first dae at werk!
woohoooo~
finalie...
bt stil,
its temp at IRAS...
boohoo...
wen wil i eva gt a perm job?
sobz sobz...
& wed is e results....
shivers....
guess it wil b anotha slpless nyt femme...
wish me e best people!
Chiaoz.....
Saturday, February 23, 2008
so wad hv i bin doin?
nth interestin...
juz fin readin up e 2nd last storybook & chattin wit Mr "Macho"...
plus a sneezin fit (watz new eh?)...
oh well enjoy e random pic tat hpn since e sch ended til nw...
not in any order of corz....
Monday, February 18, 2008
yupz yupz im stil alive & kickin tho abit unwell...
tummyaches,
headaches,
runny shyt,
endless interviews which ended up in e drain,
insomnia insomnia insomnia...
kkz nt sure if i reli haf insomnia bt i reli cnt slp til im reli tired which is usually arnd 3++ in which i will oso force myself to b tired & den wil suddenly b awake by 7am bt owis force my ass to slp which i oni succeed wen e clock finalie strike 9/10am..
Here wat hpn on Monday...
after a week of stupid free labor at e esplanade til sat,
i decided to rot at hm wit e fam on sun...
well due to my darn low budget too...
so,
on Mon wen i eventually woke up at 12pm,
i was cheerfully greeted by bodyaches & stiff neck..
folod by blur vision & block ryt ear...
i swear i omoz fainted while makin e drinks....
not sure if im gettin weaker or its pms or im juz suddenly kapoof aft stop doin werk...
coz til nw e tummy stil tumble & i stil haf runny shyt & e neck is stil stiff...
plus tons of pimples...
haiz...
& e legs r sooo damn itchy to go shoppin & slack bt e bank sae NO!
me nid me kerchiings...
me nid new clothes dresses shoes bags hairtrim...
me nid a drawer...
me nid
me nid
me nid...
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Life a bore after exams...
Life a bore after exams especially when you are broke...
Life a bore after exams especially when you are broke & unemployed...
Each day a bore...
Every single hour a bore to wait...
Every single hour a bore to wait for replies...
Every single hour a bore to wait for replies and calls...
Each minute a bore...
Each minute a bore to think...
Each minute a bore to think of plans...
Each minute a bore to think of plans for the future...
Every second a bore...
Every second a bore to look forward to...
Every second a bore to look forward to when there's nothing...
Every second a bore to look forward to when there's nothing to look forward to...
Each moment a bore...
Each moment a bore to go through...
Each moment a bore to go through idling...
Each moment a bore to go through idling aimlessly...
All is a bore...
Friday, February 01, 2008
EXAMS FINALIE OVA!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
So how did I celebrate it?
Food Food Food & more Food..........
Gang up with my foodie-face makan kaki Shima,
off we went to=====>
1st stop: Amirah's Grill buffet@Arab St....
Ate to the brim of our already boncet stomachs with all e fish fillets, bbq chicken, beef rendang-like thingy, & veggies plus lots & lotsa water & oh not forgettin my mountain plate full of coleslaw...
lolx...
Our initial thoughts of shishain was discarded due to our almost bursting stomachs & shaggerism as the food digested...
& whatnot, we stayed there for almost 3hrs!
haha....
so e typical of iLa-Shima...
e food was definitely better than e last tym i went....
slurp~
so before going to our next stop,
we detoured to=====>
2nd stop: Donut Factory@Suntec
oh gawd our stomach were already bursting,
but we still bought 8 & 2 donuts respectively!
heehee....
though we didn't eat on e spot,
we still had e appetite to buy such stuff...
i was tempted ok shima,
tempted..........
then off we went to our last destination======>
3rd stop: Haagen Daaz@Esplanade
After circling ourselves arnd Suntec just to find a damn pathetic outlet there,
we flap our way to e Esplanade's outlet...
Yay!
A definitely betta choice....
I totalie fgt wat we ordered,
bt it was superlicious....
esp Shima's "baby food"....
yummy....
we sure can b co-host of makansutra...
kkz long story short,
*coz e tummy is makin growling noises thx to al e truckloads of mix food thrown into it*,
we travel,
BY FOOT,
from:
Bugis MRT=>Arab St=>Suntec (in which we got lost in e bldg itself)=>Esplanade=>City Hall MRT....
Bear in mind we boboly took e longer route fer all places....
kkz will update e pic soon....
e tummy is headbanging!!!!!
Monday, January 14, 2008
ain't bad at all...
Yessa!
Hate us or love us
A day that was supposed to be a fast shuffled between friends, school & family ended up just, friends & family!
=D
It was initially meant to support these guys here, especially the one standing up, in a video competition finals at SMU.
Oh not forgetting our Doraemon police boy here too..
Damn our Doraemon has slimmed down!
The power of NS is really great...
Nevermind as long as the dimples are still intact...
Heehee...
Well anyways,
we reach a tad late after losing our ways finding it...
*cough cough*
So while waiting for the results to be announce in 2hrs,
& e thoughts of open house duties drained me away immediately,
we headed to TCC for desserts &,
a teeny weeny espresso that cost 5 bux!
Hahaha....
Satisfied with our desserts & drinks,
we trotted back for the results...
Only to be left behind by Hamidi & Froz...
-_-
Thinking that they went to relieve themselves & contact us afterwards,
we decided to,
CAMWHORE!
Without knowing that our poor boy Zaiman was virgin to the word,
"CAMWHORE"...
When in fact he's the one who's always excited each time during camwhoring session.
Duh!
We will drag you for more camwhoring session aitez?
So after dancing to the Bharatanatyam,
interacting with our die-hard fans that keep trailing us,
*it's hard to be famous*
communicating with our alter ego,
positioning ourselves for more shoots,
*ehem ehem*
we finally received a call from the guys...
"They won!"
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?!!!!
The results is out?
we pulled each other out from the area & dashed to the room...
They won!
They won!
Wooooohooooooooo~
Darn I'm envious...
Wish I was in the film...
Felt bad we weren't there to watch the screening & be there when the announcement was made!
But it's ok,
the guys were cool though the director, Ajay,
was shaking so bad...
Aftershocks from the winning...
Met the folks at nite for rojak after movie at Cineleisure,
lolz...