I have no choice....

burp!
im stuff...
totalie stuff to e brim...
dunno watz wrong wimme tis few daes...
bin eatin late at nyt...
& i dun mean eatin finger food nibblish stuff...
bt real meal...
rice larz...
2 pratas larz...
lyk,
wtf ila!
r u tryin to gorge urself wit food?
sheesh...
insane ila...
insaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaane...

i realise ive nt bin consistent wit my werk...
my revision bin gg lyk shyt...
todae study,
tmr stop...
den e foloin dae study,
e foloin foloin dae stop...
wth...
watz wrong wimme?
i feel s tho ive nt conc much on myself uh...
i kip tinkin & blardyly analysing ppl...
hakz....
yupz..
my fav hobby...
"analysing ppl"...
i reli sld stop doin tt...
its gettin e bad on me...
bt tinkin of tt hobby of mine,
is der any job tt involves analysing ppl?
i wld lyk to go fer it...
coz i tink,
well,
it suits me!
hakz...

im gettin insane...
insanely weird...
i cn stare tru e walls fer hrs & nt gt bored...
serious!
ive bin to e clubby to study e past few daes...
kkz...
basicalie i cnt study at hm due to e cosyness of my oh-so-lovely rm...
so i nid to escape to sch to mug...
& clubby is e moz suitable plc s it is comfy,
bt yet,
hv e muggish atmosphere...
plus i dun mind e enterin & exitin of ppl to & from e clubby...
at least i wun gt bored...
buuuuuuuuuuuuuuut........
i gt tis serious prob of wall gazin b4 revision starts...
it doesnt oni occur at clubby...
bt even at hm...
its scarin me...

oh tokin bout scary,
had anotha scary deja vu at clubby juz nw...
basicalie e gerls,
mesh reg sabz me,
we were tokin bout tis new theatre course in SP...
& suddenly e whole scene bkum freakingly familiar...
whoa...
its s tho a flashback...
bt i cnt rmbr wer i seen e scene...
its reli creepy i tell u...
e sittin position & topic were exactly e same...
it shocked me fer a moment...
wel,
i dunno wat tt deja vu mean...
hope it juz a plain deja vu...

anws...
so ya...
havent reli started on my revison yet...
shucks...
hw i wish i stil hv e O's period attitude...
it juz died dwn on me soon aft e O's ended...
ya...
its hell,
bt at least it gv me gd results...
& i nid gd results...
coz i feel my diploma will b redundant & useless in future...
which i hv a feelin it will b larz...
haiz...
ila ila ila...
tink on e bright side puh leees...

hvnt reli tok to mom either...
i dunno if she is stil mad at me notz ar...
bt,
she doesnt give me e "mad" aura anemore...
& i cnt reli sense if she's ok or notz..
im confuse...
bt i try nt to tink too much of it...
its hurtin ya,
bt i haf to move on...
i nid to focus on exams...
ya,
bin escapin to sch coz of tis too...
& ya,
i feel bad...
bt i nid tym alone to reflect on myself...
i tink i did...
i oni nid courage to face to her...
wat beng said is true...
im e type of person hu is nt ready to gv...
its damn scary hw he noes exactly hw a person character is...
i nid to chg tt character of me...
haiz...
dowana tok bout it...
my head hurts...

i nid to rest...
or sld i study first?