ppl may b bored hearin me whine bout tis agn...
bt tis tym im sure its gona hpn...
s much s i dowan & hope it wun hpn,
it will...

I'm gona fail tis semester

yes,
u read it ryt...
im gona fail...
its oni e 2nd ppr bt i noe hw e result wil b...
it juz kil me totalie...
i cnt even complete one whole qn witout feelin unsure...
ders no confidence wen i did e ppr...
non....
zilch...
i was feelin lyk crap even b4 e ppr start...
in fact b4 i slp e nyt b 4 i was oredy feelin lyk crap...
i noe fer sure i wun mk it...
der goes ma goal in achieven at least gpa of 3 fer tis sem...
haiz...
y cnt i b lyk otha studs?
easily pass no,
score eir pprs....
grad wit a transcript full of Dist's,A's & B's...
bt mine?
oni Cs, Ds & soon...
F...
y muz lyf b judge based on ppr qualification?

i wld rather b sum1 hu doesnt hv dip or degree bt climb up e success ladder & mk it big one dae
than bein a lyfless phD or masters holder stuck in e office cubicle hu fegets e beauty of sunset & brids chirpin anrd him...
i wana b successful
YES!
hu doesnt?
bt i wana learn frm e bottom...
i hate it wen ppl look dwn on ppl witout "proper" qualification...
i blif in e phrase,
"no pain, no gain"
hw many enterpreneurs/successful ppl actualy mk it big straight to e top?
i dare sae minority of em...
tk Mustafa fer eg...
he started smal...
reli smal i sld sae...
bt look at his biz nw?
a 24hr shoppin ctr
+ a string of otha biz which i cnt rmbr...
kkz mebe Donald Trump...
i feget hw he started bt i noe he start frm scratch...
& look at tt old man nw...
wowz....
i wana b lyk tt!
i wana mk it big in e future...
bt i wana start frm scratch & learn it e hard way...
coz i noe i wun mk it if i start straight frm e top...
i will flop lyk shyt...
im nt e gifted type tt can absorb & catch thangz fast...
im pratical...
means i nid to pratice & hands on to achieve sth...

tt explains pretty much y i dun excel much in studies compared to otha stuff...
ya,
u can sae i excel in my CCAs or wadeva tts related...
bt im nt brainy....
i dun score s well in studies...
& nw fer sure,
im gona repeat a sem...
& wen im lookin fer werk in e future,
damn hell its gona b tough...
i cnt even mk ma dreams of gg to NIE to bkum a tcher kum true...
i noe im gg to b a disspoinment to ma folks...
bt i gues e "repeat" tradition runs in e fam...

haiz...
i wish tis werld chg its way of lookin at a person's capabilities...

oh god,
i pray to u that i will pass this semester & will not repeat any module...
amin......